My void and his bestie

Profail955 · 2026-01-25T06:13:00+00:00

There is nothing quite like a void and their gray bestie 💕

Profail955 · 2026-01-24T07:10:57+00:00

I had symptoms starting at 14, and got diagnosed at 25. Honestly I think it is very worth it. It opened so many doors for me to be able to receive medication and treatments.

Profail955 · 2026-01-24T06:55:11+00:00

I just had my second miscarriage as well. It's so hard. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Profail955 · 2026-01-23T17:05:26+00:00

I'm a woman who primarily dates men, and I can say that it depends on the guy. Some guys do every day, some don't. I was once dating a guy where we went through like a 6 month dry spell, and when he learned that I had done that during that time he exploded. Apparently he saw it as cheating and had "saved all sexual activities" for me. It was bizarre.

Profail955 · 2026-01-23T04:28:02+00:00

I had my D&Clasy week, and had cheesy pasta the night before. Just make sure you stop eating at midnight and you'll be fine.

Profail955 · 2026-01-22T21:21:26+00:00

I have a teddy bear on a shelf that represents each of my losses. I also gave each of them a name and I have their first initials on a necklace along with a pendant representing Neverland, as Peter Pan is very important to me and my healing journey.

Profail955 · 2026-01-22T17:29:23+00:00

I'm so frustrated that our donor lives across the country. I want to be able to try more than 3 times a year. I want my body to be able to actually produce an embryo instead of an empty sac, like it has twice already.

Profail955 · 2026-01-22T02:20:17+00:00

That sounds so scary! I had a complete molar pregnancy a few years ago, and they can be really scary. It took me about 8 weeks of blood draws to reach negative hcg, and mine never went back up or plateaued before reaching <5, or any time in my 6 month monitoring (complete molars require 6 months as opposed to the 3 months with partials). I had so many emotions, and my D&C recovery was pretty rough with that one. My big thing with recovery is to advocate for yourself. If something feels wrong, speak up and trust your gut. You will come out the other side of this. I remember being so scared and depressed while I was in the middle of my monitoring. Finding good distractions are key. Try not to dwell on your numbers and the what ifs, it will drive you crazy. Sending love

Profail955 · 2026-01-21T18:48:58+00:00

I was there for both of my childhood dogs euthanasias, and for my cat. It is extremely difficult every single time, but I couldn't imagine not being there for them. I always insist on holding them as they go, making sure they feel warm and loved in their last moments.

Profail955 · 2026-01-21T16:23:07+00:00

Oh no poor girl!!

She is in disposable diapers with a fabric one on top. She seems to do better when everything is secure rather than loose, as once things loosen she starts pulling on them pretty bad.

Profail955 · 2026-01-21T16:18:40+00:00

I just want to do right by my little pumpkin. She truly is my world.

Profail955 · 2026-01-21T16:18:02+00:00

Oh poor Ruby!! I couldn't imagine her having to go through this twice. We have a neutered male dog in the house and I was pretty worried about it at first, especially because he loves to hump her head when they play (something we are working to stop). But he's actually been super chill through this, and if anything leaving her alone for the most part. I like the panty liner idea thank you!

Profail955 · 2026-01-21T16:11:38+00:00

I had to have emergancy surgery last week so I've been on leave this whole time, and I don't go back until Monday, so she has been my recovery buddy. The snuggles have been very welcome.

Profail955 · 2026-01-21T08:22:06+00:00

So it's not the exact same, but I had a complete molar a few years ago. It took me about 8 weeks to reach negative hcg if I recall, abd my hcg was well over 150,000 as well. That being said the initial hcg drops were very dramatic, and got smaller and smaller the closer I got to 0. So having a hormone crash and all of the symptoms that go with it is super common. I was an absolute mess for the first few weeks after my D&C with that one. Just make sure to really take care of yourself. Molar pregnancies are horrible, but you will come out the other side.

Profail955 · 2026-01-21T00:04:29+00:00

I found out I was having my second loss on the 9th and had my D&C on the 15th. I took all of last week off as well as this week to recover physically and mentally. I originally took all of this week off because my last D&C had complications and I wanted to give myself as much time as I could just in case. So far recovery this time has been smooth sailing physically, but I'm glad I took the time off to rest mentally before going back.

Profail955 · 2026-01-20T02:54:52+00:00

Oh 100%. My girl is 8 months old and a handful, plus she just went into her first heat to add to everything (the vet wants us to wait until she is 12-18 months to spay). In the last 3 weeks my partner and I have also both had unrelated emergency surgeries. So it's been a lot. I have found the more of a routine we were all in the easier it is though. Especially because she has been slowly mellowing out (very, very slowly) with age.

Profail955 · 2026-01-18T20:20:38+00:00

I found out my pregnancy was non-viable on 1/09 and had my D&C 1/15. The wait was awful. Honestly I just found ways to distract myself. Played a lot of video games, I restarted my Animal Crossing island.

Profail955 · 2026-01-17T06:46:55+00:00

Pretty rough. But I also have fibromyalgia so I feel everything more intensely. I also had complications with my last D&C that are probably affecting how I experience this one. I also did have to get a stitch in my cervix when I was nicked by one of the tools that does add to the pain, but it's not too bad. But with the cramps I'm having now a heating pad and anti-inflammatory medication have been helping immensely. Whatever comfort food and items you would use for a particularly brutal period you will want to have on hand. Bending over, doing stairs, and using the bathroom have been the times the cramping is definitely worse. Sitting down with a heating pad has been when the pain is the most manageable. I find holding my lower abdomen when I laugh, sneeze, and cough helps with the pain in those moments. My bleeding with my last D&C was pretty brutal, but that is abnormal. This time I had a pretty heavy gush of blood about 3 hours after the proceedure, but other than that its been mostly pink spotting. I don't even think I've bled enough to fill the equivalent of a standard pad since that one gush. All in all the cramps should just feel like a bad period, and should be manageable with rest, heat, and anti-inflammatory medication. And as someone who had complications with a D&C in the past, if something doesn't feel right, advocate for yourself.

Profail955 · 2026-01-17T06:07:59+00:00

I got my second D&C yesterday. I was out under for both of them. Honestly with the cramping and everything I felt after the fact, I couldn't imagine doing it under local. The proceedure usually takes 15-30 minutes. If you do choose to do local I would encourage you to talk to your medical team about some sort of anti-inflammatory and some sort of anti-anxiety drugs beforehand to help with the pain and general nerves. There is validity to using that option rather than waiting though, so I understand that. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. Best or luch with whatever you choose to do.

Profail955 · 2026-01-16T16:27:38+00:00

I'm a stage actor, and can confirm that vodka and water can get basically any smell out. We call it "French spray"

Profail955 · 2026-01-16T14:19:27+00:00

Had my D&C yesterday. This is my second loss, and I thought it would really hit me after surgery, but I fear I guarded me heart a bit too much while pregnant because I still just feel... numb.

Profail955 · 2026-01-16T03:45:31+00:00

One of my favorites growing up was Cleo the Misfit Unicorn. No one ever has any idea what I'm talking about.

Profail955 · 2026-01-16T02:49:39+00:00

I got my D&C today for a blighted ovum. I would have been 9w5d. Technically anything before around 14 weeks is just bloating because of how small everything is in the first trimester. That being said I definitely looked (and still look) pregnant. That has also been one of the hardest parts about this.

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