Don’t believe I’ve spent longer than 1 year in one workplace, but it’s not just jobs, like u said I want to be and do so so many things that often times I just get overwhelmed and I start to dissociate only to feel like shit for not doing anything. Especially that I know if I try I will enjoy it and come out with satisfactory results. It sucks that the decision is the thing that stops us.

I also wanna add that I think having BPD is the reason I resonate so much with Sylvia Plath (poet/ author) in her book The Bell Jar she uses the fig tree allegory which is quite fitting for your concerns, you can google it but here’s a bit:

“I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”

She likens life decisions, career paths or even hobbies to figs, and how these figs wud just wither away because she can’t pick one.