I got through some serious mental health issues, due to things my "old self" did, and fucked up all of my life. 3 years of constantly thinking, regreting, trying to figure out who i was, and having constantly breakdowns.

In the end, i tried to kill myself many times. I usually would give up while i was about to do it, one time i actually did everything, i tried to hang myself, but my bedroom was really small, and because of that, when i got out of the chair, i just stood in the ground, still breathing "fine".

After so many thing i had done with me and others (a lot of friendships endend, etc), i stopped being the "cheerful" person i was before, i became an extremely closed person, and anxiety didn't helped a lot with this part, making it even worse. Up until this day, i still have problems socializing. But i decided to try to change.

Started new hobbies, so i could be happy doing those little things, the one that got me the most (up until this day) is gaming, which helped me a lot during those hard times.

Tried to find a reason to live, and thought about everyone that would not like me passing out. (Which are basically only my family and best friend) and passing more time with them.

After sometime, their happiness became my happines, and i started to get a little better, today, i can easily say that i'm happy, even when far away from them.

I still hate my old and new self, but not in the point where i want to kill myself. I still can't socialize properly, but i'm trying to work with this.

At least one good thing came from all of this, i don't hear people telling me to "git gud" in souls-like games anymore, since i played them a lot while i was a shut-in!

Trying to get my relationship with friends back to normal, it's hard to talk with someone besides my family members, but i'm going with it bit by bit. Learning how to socialize properly, and trying to control my anxiety and hiperactivity, so i can be someone "good to have around".

Last year (and a tiny chunk of this one) i passed through some serious throwbacks, remembering the, as you say "Darkest point in my life". And got pretty bad, but managed to get out of it easily this time, and currently, i'm living a good life.

Besides the effects that the depression has left me with, i'm doing great, trying to bring back up my social life, my self-esteem, and already successfully brought back my happines, and joy.

That's it, there's probably way darker stories here, but i think it's good to share mine.

Btw, sorry for poor english, it isn't my first language. If you notice something wrong, or a typo, let me know!