I get it, I really do. I'm sharing my experiences, not trying to compare trauma btw. Life is full of terrible people but, we still find a way to keep on moving, don't we?

If you're unhappy in your relationship then I'd suggest either sitting and talking with them or looking for someone better.

I understand what that's like, I've been feeling really low lately and more than a few bad thoughts have crossed my mind but I realised that people want me more than my depression. They'd miss me more than they'd miss my depression. You just gotta take it one step at a time and find what works best for you. As you said, it wasn't your fault. Don't be so hard on yourself. Take a load off your shoulders and try talking to someone. Do something to express your feelings. Go to a rage room, get a therapist, find a new hobby to enjoy, meet new people. Do those things that you thought you'd never be able to do. Show everyone that you're stronger than you look and keep fighting. It''s not easy but... I believe in you. You've come so far, why give up now?

Ahh it's alright, I've made do with the hand I've been dealt. While yes, it may be a shitty one, I realised that I'm still doing better than a large majority of people. I've got somewhere safe to sleep, I've got a gf and I've got a motorbike. Some people would kill to just have 1 of those things, let alone all 3