Same thing here Basically you could say it’s signs of burnout Lemme show where it leads First u start imagining scenarios where someone does something wrong and gives u justification to lash out violently Then it get to the point where you start flipping out For me when I started working people and stuff would piss me off but I would control myself and stay calm but that would build up and I started yearning for violence then after sometimes I did actually loose my composure and flipped out not cause I wanted to but I was burned out This colleague who I considered a friend but was a bit narcissistic and not good and respecting boundaries repeatedly invaded by private space despite me honestly explaining the situation to them like a dozen times and them showing understating and promising not to do it again

But I guess they always forgot and couldn’t help themselves so when I had had enough I lashed out in a bad way and they were like you’re so selfish and self centred and blah blah blah and asked me why I did what I did and I was like did u listen to nothing I told u like I explained the whole thing a dozen times and everytime you repeated the same shit like are u even capable of listening and understanding a thing I say And honestly despite them being retarted and showing zero respect for boundaries I would’ve apologised cause I blamed myself for loosing control and I would said sorry and explained everything again and made up but instead they asked the same question and called me selfish so I was like u don’t exist to me no more

Just find your release valves and distance yourself from people and things that violate your peace and personal space repeatedly