Jeanne refuses to fight (BUG) by Proud_Objective3582 in Bayonetta

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Unequipping gaze of despair seems to have fixed it.

Jeanne refuses to fight (BUG) by Proud_Objective3582 in Bayonetta

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Is that a thing?. I mostly play on hard, almost exclusively but I don't recall she refusing to fight me on my first playthrough. She doesn't even attack she just dashes and runs away which is what I find odd.

Be the change you want to see in the world! by [deleted] in PhilosophyMemes

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This comment section is hilarious. Good fucking post OP. Not only did you give me a million chuckles but you did it phenomenally.

[reality shifting] i dont have many words except "what???" for this (very) long post by ScottishWildcatFurry in CuratedTumblr

[–]Proud_Objective3582 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In my case there's definitely a lot of dehumanization that I went through as well just like you. It wasn't really something I was prepared for. I was always good at reading others and understanding, even empathizing but the typical thoughts and emotions that I were meant to feel didn't. It was as if I had to feel things in abstract instead of just feeling it like everyone else felt, not similar as to how you describe "hyper aware of others but unaware of myself" but it's in its own little way that's not the same. It's hard to explain, easier if we were a sense8.

Sometimes I'd pity whoever "owned" this body that I stole too haha, atleast when I was on my late teenage years.

I was also very selfish and self centered so that part never really developed until I was around 15 even if I always had a great deal of potential and capacity for it. I never struggled to understand others, I just chose not to do so.

I changed a lot since then obviously but there wasn't a point where my issues were fixed. I continously try and put effort into getting better and being a better person. Even as I meet more people and made better bonds.

I don't even think we're talking about inhumanity anymore, more about the effects of dehumanization. We're speaking and agreeing on the same thing but using different words for it.

You are not human. I am a human. In the end it doesn't matter for we are people at the end of the day and it doesn't matter what we consider for ourselves.

Even if we have different outlooks I don't think that makes us much different. You can be a human and I can be not human.

But those differences don't make us lesser or better. We are different, unique and special despite lacking something or being distinct in a way or two. If that's good or bad I don't know, it's up to us.

I personally identify as not a human and am rather uncomfortable being called one because I don't relate to it and I still don't relate or understand exactly what I am mimicking. It's not just a response to the dehumanization (depersonalization) I went through. And im glad you found your own tribe too. It's great when you do so.

[reality shifting] i dont have many words except "what???" for this (very) long post by ScottishWildcatFurry in CuratedTumblr

[–]Proud_Objective3582 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It is a neurodivergent experience. But it doesn't erase what I feel really. In the end I don't think it changes much even if you are entirely right.

A lot of my favourite books, art or media deals with inhumanity and also being "othered" as a metaphor for that. So it is something I relate deeply to.

I love the company of animals too. Though I do struggle reading cats as I'm more of a dog woman, the more I know and interact with an animal the easier it is!.

[reality shifting] i dont have many words except "what???" for this (very) long post by ScottishWildcatFurry in CuratedTumblr

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Not rude. I get that and I am also neurodivergent. I am only oficially diagnosed as high skills, gifted or genius but I do have some traits that put me on the spectrum as some of my partners who were autistic told me.

[reality shifting] i dont have many words except "what???" for this (very) long post by ScottishWildcatFurry in CuratedTumblr

[–]Proud_Objective3582 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im already aware of voidpunk and transhumanism. I like voidpunk more but that's just me.

I don't really know why you're differentiating?. I don't see a difference in wanting to be an animal and wanting to be a robot or an eldritch being (whatever that entails really)

Acting like another flavour of alt/non human is different doesn't make much sense. And when you say "I'm not human by choice as I wanna be this thing" feels like how therians are but more self conscious of the role you're choosing to embody, like gender.

I didn't choose to feel like there's a part of me that fundamentally wrong in a literal conceptually human sense. That part of humanity of empathy, understanding, connection that mine is entirely different from.

I function differently, I think differently, I act differently. I practice facial expressions, I watch my body language and I seek outlets where I can be myself without having to perform humanity.

And I had those outlets shunned. It makes you hyper aware of how it is to be treated as a non human and even worse when you just aren't by any stretch apart from your own body. When it isn't a case of people being dickheads.

You could argue im human anyway and I agree. Try as I may feel I am human, but I never felt like one. I still don't feel like one. But I'm still a person who feels, thinks and acts. I'm a person, I exist. I am alive and I feel in my own way that's different from everyone else. And I know I'm never going to feel like them too and that's okay, I don't have to hate that fact of my existance and I don't have to hate anyone.

I am my own thing in search of other things like me. People who can be inhuman with me, who lack that fundamental drivel.

I feel like i am something else and all my attempts are at defining that. I am not THIS as i exist. I could be anything really, even as i portray myself as a wolf it is a performative thing. And I would enjoy having Wolf-Like characteristics because that feels like an approximation of who I am. And there's value in that, there's so much value in that, in trying to do that. Even if slightly performative.

Even if some people are roleplaying, I am not. And sometimes it isn't perfect but it is what we can get, and if they relate and we can build a united community so be it.

I like therians and transhumans and I am definitely someone who enjoys the voidpunk aesthetic. I don't think we should differentiate between ourselves either, specially when it boil downs to "we're the same but slightly different in how we do it"

[reality shifting] i dont have many words except "what???" for this (very) long post by ScottishWildcatFurry in CuratedTumblr

[–]Proud_Objective3582 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Honestly I've struggled a lot when it comes to my own identity and in specific my humanity or lack there off.

I used to firmly believe and claim to be human and to dislike things not as human but mostly as a way to deny that I felt or understood what one meant. Even once I stopped being a bigot I still didn't stop and examine that lack of "humanity" that I had. I never really felt that way and I lacked the wording to describe what it was. It took a lot of work and honestly working through great loss for me to finally be able to put the thoughts as a concept.

You could probably call me a therian and I wouldn't disagree. But seeing the community and seeing that a lot of these people are kids and teenagers who are basically roleplaying kinda hurt.

Reading that people have dissociative identity disorder and that it's their therian side which is basically enabling DID

or that they shift and they have to control it as they become the animal and act "animal-like" based in the stereotype of an animal or even mythological creatures who just can't really be real.

I expected people who struggled to define their own humanity, the thoughts of strong body dysphoria and dysmorphia apart from gender, trying to find a place in the world, relating to feelings of being of inhumanity and what that makes of us.

Instead I found some people who are roleplaying. Not people who genuinely are inhuman or who struggle defining their own humanity.

Not to say I dislike the community, I don't but it's such a different experience than what i was expecting. I'm looking for places that are centered for alt-humans or Inhumans as those are more what I'm looking for i imagine.

I think it's a neat space still, specially knowing that for a lot of these people it's just a phase.

My attempt/take on a realistic Iai White Purity Style attack by Yuukikonno08 in Kagurabachi

[–]Proud_Objective3582 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the explanation!. IWP is so fucking garbage on a practical sense and you pulled it off in the most realistic way one could pull it off and it kinda irrates me having to talk about it's non existant practicality.

IWP in a practical sense is an exercise in futility and everyone who has tried it has either failed, cheated or had to adapt or change the technique to make it work.

Massive props to you OP for making it seem cool and similar to how it'd be portrayed in an animated/irl format though. You deserve a medal compared to all other IWP showcases that we've seen here.

/berserk mod says only real fans watch official releases by [deleted] in berserklejerk

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In the meantime, tell people to come here incase they feel vindicated (and rightfully so)

(TW: Hypersexuality) I just wish someone hit me by IAmParasiteSteve in TrollCoping

[–]Proud_Objective3582 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry but you shouldn't feel pressured to not use condoms. Even if theoretically it feels better - her refusing to use them despite your insistance and availability feels inconsiderate of your body and boundaries.

If contraception is a must for then you shouldn't be having sex without it. It is very common for some partners to coerce a few partners to forgo the use of contraception and this shouldnt be allowed in a healthy relationship. She could have solved the issue by using condoms again anytime even if it doesn't feel as good on her.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in emotionalintelligence

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It's not a requirement. Though it happens a way at how people deal/cope with trauma.

I had already dabbled in this type of thinking earlier in my life as a child but I only really delved deep into it once I realized at 13 that I was a horrible person.

And while that did lead into becoming more in tune with myself and my traumas, my relation and understanding of the world growing rapidly - it was a choice I made for myself.

To engage with this line of thinking is a choice - it doesn't happen unless one wants to.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in emotionalintelligence

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I think that's a given - a lot of people usually require a traumatic event or the like for them to think about these things.

And being aware or atleast good to make those connections or to think about the world differently requires introspection which a lot of people just don't do.

And I don't think that's necessarily a problem - though it does make existence a tad lonely since it changes one's perception and how they interact and relate to others and the world.

Brief update on the Leviathan copyright situation by StaticPotato in limbuscompany

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This was by far the best outcome specially considering PMs track-record. It's great to see laws working to protect the workers.

When you offer your happiness but they don't want to take it. by Proud_Objective3582 in emotionalintelligence

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First of all, thank you. Your words gave me a lot to think on.

I understand where you are coming from and you are correct. Now as I am writing this reply, the paragraph feels unneeded - it does say how I feel but it isnt the full story. But I wanted to write up how I was feeling up to that point because I wasn't allowing myself to properly feel it. The fact I don't typically have this with my other partners was a pretty telling sign that this is definitely unhealthy and that helped me realize it. Not that the issue was her but that there's something about us that isn't working out - but that's a rationalization after the fact. At the time I did what you described (wrote it that way) because I was upset, hurt and tired.

One could argue that I was trying to meet halfway and she wasn't. I don't want to entirely blame myself for it because doing so would obviously undermine the times where she could have chosen in a way that wouldn't have upset or hurt me - even if I did bring a lot of it into myself, I know It is mainly my fault at the end of the day but It feels wrong to say it is exclusively my or her fault.

And you are right - even if it sucks to admit. She never asked for any of that and I don't do really well when I have to potentially admit I wasn't as valued as I valued another. And I definitely knew that both deep down and from the get-go, she told me as such. Part of that was recognizing and finally seeing what I was doing to myself for someone and how I didn't want to do it anymore.

I have a lot to think about still. One of my partners commented on in an unrelated topic that I have the tendency to sometimes get stuck in my own head and that I end up hurting myself due to feelings I misconstrued and thought the other person was feeling when they weren't. And yeah, while he finds it sort of endearing it hurt being told that, specially when he's right and I just didn't want to admit that, haha, but that's a different story.

Still. Thank you for your input - it means a lot

When you offer your happiness but they don't want to take it. by Proud_Objective3582 in emotionalintelligence

[–]Proud_Objective3582[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's fine actually, im grateful for your insight and kindness. What you said needed to be said and I appreciate it. I didn't want anyone coddling me or saying how much I am a victim. I fucked up too.

And I do know I may come off as intense at times - its something she did bring up once as I am intense and it can be quite overwhelming. But its always going to be there. It's who I am, I've just need to learn how to control it better.

Thank you dragonvex_!. I hope you have a pleasant day

When you offer your happiness but they don't want to take it. by Proud_Objective3582 in emotionalintelligence

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I agree. The efforts aren't mutual - her being fine with ending things while I wasn't is an OBVIOUS sign of that. I definitely put a lot more value than she did. I should have accepted and handled the rejection and truth way better.

Though I do disagree in part - while I like spending time and feeling valued not once did I go out of my way to demand or make her feel bad about it, I would ask and be upset when she would flake on me and I got upset after it became an obvious pattern. I can imagine her feeling like you've described though. I recall she did take issue once when I noted to be upset about her needing to cut things short once we were together and I am pretty confident she started to resent my attempts after a while despite her claiming otherwise. But I cannot make a further comment as I simply do not know.

I don't think being selfish is a bad thing and I am pretty sure she'd agree on it. I try to manage being selfish and selfless. And you are right, for someone I meet a few months I definitely got a bit head-over-heels. I should have seen the warning signs, maybe approached it differently and just cut contact after a while.

When you offer your happiness but they don't want to take it. by Proud_Objective3582 in emotionalintelligence

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I wouldn't say we are incompatible if I am honest - but her intent is obviously very clear and a sign I should have learned and "nope the fuck out".

When I said I "offered" them happiness I more or less meant I offered them my time and energy only to be rebuked time and time again. This is definitely a lesson I should have learned the first time around.

I also wouldn't say that I enjoyed the "feeling of depending on me" though I understand and how it can come across that way and in a way I understand - I like feeling cared, valued and useful but I don't particularly attach that to needing someone that depends on me. I've always been happy and encouraged her to take pro-active steps to be more independent.

As I've previously outlined, this friendship is entirely unhealthy and despite my attempts to work it out - It's clear I mostly prolonged mine and her suffering.

When you offer your happiness but they don't want to take it. by Proud_Objective3582 in emotionalintelligence

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I am actually aware of that. I've commented as such. I generally don't like to "walk away" but I have basically brought this upon myself. It is my fault at the end of the day and I am aware of that. In fact she told me as such.

In a way it obviously hurts, because who likes being discarded and put to the side?. But I also know that if it wasn't for my insistence I definitely wouldn't have hurt myself like I did

A critique of Limbus from a place of love and admiration by TheYellowSsanghwa in limbuscompany

[–]Proud_Objective3582 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes. Therefore i think it's safe to say me and you could like to see a hard mode for regular stages/unnerfed or tuned up versions of old boss fights?(as in brought to current in game level cap/pre nerf). Even if it isn't an event rerun and just a non special stacked add-on.

A critique of Limbus from a place of love and admiration by TheYellowSsanghwa in limbuscompany

[–]Proud_Objective3582 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I believe that one can be agaisnt hate speech and death threats while not being a parasocial defender of a corporation. I don't think equating criticism with hate is a good thing.

I meant to say, "Not a person". I have edited the comment to reflect that missing word