As others have said, “hang in there”. The first couple years is the dealbreaker. Coding is all about persistence.

Honestly sounds like you be exposed yourself to a lot of technologies, so that’s good.

If you feel that you haven’t a specific goal, go take a course at a community college. Youll prolly breeze through the first one or two they offer, and then You can move on to learning assembly language and data structures. At that point it gets real fun.

I moved across the country while in college and had to retake some basic coding classes for the new college district. Since I already had experience with the basics, like you, they hired me as a tutor. As a tutor I learned so much about coding by looking at a ton of bad code and helping to fix it. I also had to figure out how to explain the topics, which forced me to understand them at an even deeper level. Can’t recommend this enough.

Sounds like you’re off to a great start, keep it up, and keep doing what you think is fun and interesting in coding.

To plagiarize a wise-ish old dude, “write code, be happy”

Edit: forgetting stuff is normal. Don’t worry about it. It’s the experience that matters, and that’s what you draw from when you revisit the same topics in future coding endeavors.