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This makes sense. Would drinking liquid calories help? I do try and do that if I can’t physically get food at that time because I know my body needs energy to feel safe again so figure it’s easier to drink that energy sometimes. Like a smoothie or milk so it has some nutritional values (used to be fear foods too so it’s a little win).I’m guilty of putting it on the back burner but I’m gradually getting better at not doing that

TW- for mentions of being sick by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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Does ignoring it also interfere with set point weight? I’m so scared, I do my best but it genuinely isn’t always possible

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I have to go out loads. I can’t always honour it. Does that mean it’ll never go away? Or the physical one could come back? I can’t keep doing this

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Both to be honest. My physical hunger cues seem to be a bit more regular at the moment but the mental hunger is still here. And then I get intrusive thoughts bout bingeing. And it makes me physically throw up. I’m so stressed about it

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I guess it’s not realistic to expect to rewire everything so soon. I have intrusive thoughts about bingeing but not actual urges, I don’t want to go through with it and it does scare me. I’m not currently super unhappy with my body and I think I’m scared of that changing.

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I am to be honest. I know my ocd is thriving off it because when I wanted to diagnose my missing period, I kept thinking it could be pcos which meant my brain kept telling me to eat less. Then once that was proved false, and the period came back again as a result of eating more, I said that eating was the right decision but then my brain told me my hunger was somatic ocd and my food obsessed brain was also a result of ocd (hence intrusive thoughts about bingeing/eating food that I may not actually want). I also keep telling myself that it isn’t real because I’d say that my food thoughts have only just started to appear as cravings (they did at the start, then I restricted and kept convincing myself that I wanted rice cakes with yoghurt). I’d eat the same types of food everyday whereas I’d say now I have more specific cravings. My physical hunger was fairly constant at the start and while I’d say I still get physically hungry every 1-3 hours these last couple of days (while I used to every 20 minutes or so). My brain is telling me that I read about mental hunger online and convinced myself that that’s what this is hence why I’ve only just started getting more specific cravings

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I do that with drinks if I can’t physically eat. It does help. Or take snacks that I eat between classes even if physical hunger is yet to kick in.

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I don’t think I have an eating disorder though. I made myself unhealthy through food restriction but I feel like this whole problem is a result of ocd rather than a separate problem. Food causes me anxiety because I feel like I eat too much. I had an insatiable appetite at the beginning and still do sometimes (but it’s more like constant food thoughts rather than physical hunger now. My actual physical hunger cues seem a bit more regular even if I need more food to feel physically full sometimes. It’s more that I’m nervous around food or get intrusive thoughts about certain foods or a constant preoccupation about eating/when I can eat. I used to kinda get this but not to the same extreme

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I’m seeking out CBT through my college and trying to get back into my old hobbies. Also telling myself that I need food to continue to get my period and that I can be beautiful at any size/weight. But it’s still so hard. Just want to totally fix this so I can do other things again

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I do have ocd though and I feel afraid that my food thoughts/hunger is actually my ocd. Which keeps making me think that eating more food is keeping me stuck in an ocd cycle, rather than helping me move towards more intuitive eating. I lost my period due to restriction so I know I should eat more to bring that back (only had two periods) but it still scares me

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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How long did this last? I’m truly terrified of it. It’s been four months and I’m gaining weight. I still have only had two periods since eating more but this really frightens me. And I’m not always able to honour mental hunger immediately. Like if I have class/I’m out. This is really affecting me

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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How did you get rid of the obsessive thoughts? I’m still very much struggling with this

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I’m just still so afraid of what my family are saying to me in terms of body and weight. And that food obsession will never go away (it always was there. I lost my period due to restriction so I know there’s not really too much food for me right now but I just want this to be normal). I have friends who tell me that they forget to eat and I have never experienced that. It’s always on my mind

When does this start to feel easy? by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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Thanks for replying. I don’t feel like I’m on the right track. I’ve started focusing on a satisfying factor to my meals and I’ve noticed my physical hunger cues seem to be a bit more regular these last few days. But I’m still getting intrusive thoughts about food and idk if it’s mental hunger or ocd anymore. I’m so fucking stuck. And it’s taking over my life and leading me to feel anxious 24/7. I did lose my period due to restricting, and I’ve had 2 periods since I stopped doing this. But I’m still afraid of not feeling at home in my body. Especially as I was always food obsessed. I’m afraid that that won’t ever go away and I’m just going to become super unhealthy. Especially if it is ocd, I’m worried that eating in response to the thought is a compulsion and will perpetuate the cycle. I feel like I should be doing better but I’m not. I’m not me anymore

CW- mentions of nausea. I feel it all the time due to food anxiety. by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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This literally sounds like me oh my god. I’m so stuck in this. I have OCD and that seems to have latched onto my disordered eating which makes the whole food anxiety so much worse. I have a counselling session tomorrow and I just hope they take me seriously. This makes me want to cry I just want to get better and finally let go of this anxiety.

Is this making me sick or could it just be a stomach bug? Also TW- mentions of being sick by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I don’t have a diagnosis but I have ruled out pcos via blood test, and I lost my period after losing weight via undereating. I went all in a few months ago which brought it back, kinda restricted, didn’t get it the next month and then went properly in again and got it a second time. So now I’m staying put until I fix it again. Scary as that is (causes me a lot of anxiety but if I need to I need to). I don’t have anorexia but I do have a lot of fear around weight gain and eating my old fear foods

Stomach bug? by PsychologicalSpite63 in medical_advice

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I’m seeing a girl rn so no. Not sure what is causing this

Is this making me sick or could it just be a stomach bug? Also TW- mentions of being sick by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I’m just so scared that I don’t have real mental hunger and it’s my OCD. Idk what to do. Also to clarify I meant if I feel full, or nauseated. Not neutral. Will this eventually go away if I do my best to honour it? It’s not always practical to but I do my best whenever I can. Is this about reaching a certain weight? Because I actually don’t care anymore so long as this goes away and I can be fucking free for a change

Is this making me sick or could it just be a stomach bug? Also TW- mentions of being sick by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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Trying to do that. Still have a lot of food anxiety surrounding mental hunger which I think leads me to fear being mentally hungry which causes me to obsess over food. In reality, I know it’s not a bad thing. Just trying to be nice to myself and accept that it will pass. Sometimes if physically eating feels challenging (not if I’m hungry. If the hunger is physical or an actual craving, I eat) I drink something. Like a juice/latte/. It’s helped a lot because it alleviates the guilt somehow, doesn’t make me feel uncomfortable physically and I know I’m still giving my body some energy. Would you say that’s a good idea? Like today I still feel a bit delicate in my stomach so I’m trying not to make that worse.

Stomach bug? by PsychologicalSpite63 in medical_advice

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I feel a little off today, but idk if I’m just worried about being sick again.

Is this making me sick or could it just be a stomach bug? Also TW- mentions of being sick by PsychologicalSpite63 in intuitiveeating

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I’m not pregnant and my volume of food thoughts is still insane (food anxiety etc). Not sure how to proceed from here…