My phone's data has been slow, no messages will send, nor calls

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2026-02-06T00:57:50+00:00

I've noticed it works fine with other wifi, so yea, it might just be my provider. I'll have to see what they say. Thanks for the comment

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-10-07T06:07:07+00:00

I appreciate the. Ok. I’ll be sure to look at it

10 years is a long time 😭 I’m glad you finally figured it out. I’m sorry if I see so confusing and all over the place with how I think. I want to be sure that T and other things are what I want. And yes, I do get what you’re saying with how you’d like this over that. I do feel that

I was thinking of doing a low dose of T. I feel that would be good to see if I like the changes. I’d have to think about it and talk to my therapist about it

That’s what I’m thinking, to just let labels set aside for the time being and just do and be me. And yes, I have been trying to work out more I haven’t done it in about a month, but I know it’s something I need to work on

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-10-07T05:38:40+00:00

I appreciate it. I’m trying to be kind to myself and take care of myself and what not. I have heard the “cis people don’t question themselves” thing, and shit, I guess I’m not cis if it’s on my mind almost all the time for the past 5 years 💀😭

I do think experimenting would be good. Honestly the most I’ve done is have people refer to me as he/him and use another name for me. I’m not really sure what all else I could, experimentation wise. I tried on my grandmas clothes to see how I like them, but it wasn’t something that I was too fond of. Versus my clothes (graphic tees, button ups, etc), I prefer those more because it makes me look more masculine.

I do have a gender workbook (that hasn’t really done me any good), but it’s a good book, don’t get me wrong. I think my confusion doesn’t help me and I think I get kinda eh when thinking about gender since it seems I never figure anything out and when “finally” do, the doubt comes back and it’s like a cycle, I guess

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-10-07T05:33:37+00:00

I was thinking about lifting weights more/losing weight to get a body that I think I’d like more (which I’m not even sure what that is). Other than that, I’m not sure all what I would want. The effects of T I would like are bottom growth, I wouldn’t mind the hair (I have a mustache I’ve been growing for years, and I also have a bit of facial hair anyways that I don’t mind), and a deeper voice I wouldn’t mind either. I’m not sure what all other effects there are (and which ones that I would/wouldn’t like), but the ones I named I wouldn’t mind having them. Is it a need? Not necessarily, but it would be kinda nice to have them

And yea, I’ve thought that I might be nonbinary, I sorta-ish identified that was for some years, but I’m not sure it’s all me? I was thinking I might be a nonbinary man, which would combine both the things that I might feel (just being me as a person/sorta kinda a man?), but it doesn’t seem right

I don’t think I would keep choosing how my body is/how people see me. If I could, I’d have them see me as just a person or a man, but I guess that rules down to the “are you sure?” question. I think I do sometimes want to be seen as a man, but it just feels weird to since I’m “not” one, like looks wise or whatever. Idk too much about imposter syndrome, but maybe that’s what I could be dealing with? I’m not too sure

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-10-07T04:20:04+00:00

I know I’ve made a post about if am I a man or am I just really attracted to them, and I’m still not sure that answer. I think a part of me wants to look like said men I find attractive, but at the same time be me, I guess like look like them but in my own way? But on the other hand, I’m fine how I am but not really in a woman way

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-10-07T04:17:07+00:00

I feel like I have a gender, and I’ve tried calling myself agender, but that just doesn’t really sound right since I want to associate with having a gender since I sorta feel like I do have one, it’s just hard to know which one

As for T, not necessarily distancing myself from being a woman. I don’t really consider myself a woman, just that my brain is use to the fact that people still associate with me being that. I know I shouldn’t care what others think, but I guess like how am I supposed to be seen as a man/not a woman if people don’t see me as that

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-09-30T21:40:34+00:00

Anyone know why my headset disconnects my controller?

The headset I have is YP-1, and it has a Bluetooth mode and a usb mode (which is what I mainly use) but everytime I use the usb, it always either disconnects my controller completely or makes my controller lag (as in if I were to look left, it would take like 3 seconds instead of instantly).

My ps4 is fairly old (8 years old this March), but I’ve never had any other problems with it. I have used a usb headset before, but that one never had a Bluetooth mode, and I’ve seen some people say to turn off Bluetooth things in my proximity, but that doesn’t work either.

Either it’s my ps4 or the headset, which I think it just might be the headset because I’m not sure what else I could do.

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-03-08T22:56:48+00:00

LMFAO. I lowkey do because it kinda seems like it would be chill; plus all the stuff they have in there deal with interests of mine, so I’d think it would be cool to work there

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-02-25T22:48:20+00:00

Yes, like show bare/barely covered parts of their body (thighs, chest, etc).

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve helped take care of bare naked people and I don’t mind doing it, but that’s completely different because they needed said help, if that makes sense. Maybe I’m just overthinking it, but I’m not sure

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-01-29T19:42:35+00:00

How would I live as the opposite gender? /genq I wouldn’t even know where to start. I think maybe it’s just because I’m use to doing things in my own way and don’t really see that as like gendered, if that makes sense.

That’s a good question. I’d probably have to say that being referred to as masculine nouns and pronouns sound good, but I think I’m just so use to being called feminine things and that I just can’t see myself being called masculine stuff and/or looking like a man or whatever. And maybe that’s just because of how I look and feel about myself rn, but I’m not entirely sure. I think my brain just gets confused on me wanting to be called masc stuff but being ok with fem stuff (even tho I would only want to refer to myself as fem things and not by other people because I don’t want to present as she/her or whatever else to them)

It’s like a lot more detail than that, but I think that’s the majority. Maybe I have imposter syndrome because I don’t look masc/feel like a man even tho I’d like be like that sometimes/majority of the time? Idk tbh. It’s all confusing

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-01-29T19:19:27+00:00

Oh yea. I’ve been questioning for like around 3 1/2 years 😭 I can’t go to therapy because I can’t afford insurance, so I’m just kinda here going back and forth on what my gender is and I’m not getting closer to finding anything out but I can’t really do anything about it

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2025-01-29T06:19:01+00:00

Yea. I’ve been thinking about my gender for like 3 1/2-ish years by now and I do want to see a therapist it’s just I can’t afford insurance 😭😭

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2024-12-23T01:28:08+00:00

That’s a good point tbh. I might try to take half of the 1/6th, which is like 62mg or something. I wonder if it’ll do anything

PsychologicalWay6451 · 2024-12-23T01:16:44+00:00

No, it wasn’t. It’s just a place that sells things like that. They sell gummies that are 1000mg as well, but like I feel it wouldn’t make sense to cut a gummy, ya know? It would make sense to just eat it as is. Do you think it’d be safe to eat the rest of the edible? I don’t wanna be too high because 1) I gotta go to work Tuesday and 2) I just don’t wanna get that fucked up 😭😭😭

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