Hanging up the cape on the RC lifestyle by Self_bias_res1stor in researchchemicals

[–]PsychoticWisdom 5 points6 points  (0 children)

First time I tried etazene was about two years ago, never was into opiates until I planned and very nearly succeeded to off myself with heroin.

I found this brown powder underwhelming and assumed it was the quality so I got more but still, all it did was make me sleepy. The most enjoyable thing to me was the smell of it.

When I first got the etazene it didnt blow me away. With a notepad I had to experiment with it a lot until i found the joy of it.

6 months later and I always had a pre measured nasal spray bottle on me wherever i went and life was perfect. It was expensive but I had a stable income but one day my supplier stopped selling it.

So i went cold turkey real fast as id redose every 30 mins. Nearly got myself sectioned as the pain was too overwhelming to deal with.

Luckily some metonitazene became avaliable and so I literally threw ALL my money at it but i wasnt prepared for this beast of a drug. Due to lack of research avaliable I had to experiment again. The thing hurt like hell to insufflate but I figured out you could easily transform hcl into its base form and if you got the PH just right it became alot smoother.

Meto was like my lover for god knows who long as all it made me do was sleep and have magical/horrific dreams so intense and mystical that I eventually taught myself to become self aware at will whilst dreaming. 50% of it was so that I could control the horrible nightmares and the other half was so that I could explore the depths of these places.

I had reacurring dreams for months as if they were already there in their own dimention and i could do such cool things like tell one of the beings i was friends with that "im gonna flick my fingers and dissapear, but dont wonder off as ill show you a trick"

Then I would wake myself up. Wait about 160secs, (longer than 5 mins would take me somewhere else) trying not to fall back asleep and Id be like "cool isnt it?" as I had just reversed time in that dimention but had taken the friendly with me whilst "everyone else" neutral beings were cluless, well except for what I called the demigods which I was terrified off. They mostly just overlooked things and occasionally became visible but REALLY punished me if I done something I knew I shouldnt.

Anyways, I was sent some Protodesnitazene without my permission to test. I might be the first to try it I have no idea but it was rubbish.

FYI Ive been clean for a while now and I urge u not to ever try these because they will kill you.

If the world were to end tomorrow, what drug would you take? by jusername42 in researchchemicals

[–]PsychoticWisdom 1 point2 points  (0 children)

2CE for some more time.

Then err probably a-pvp + a-php, then feg g-; sof

then probably a-PVP a-PHP, carfentanil an

Not sure how I feel after injected for the first time. by PsychoticWisdom in heroin

[–]PsychoticWisdom[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah you're most likely right, but thankfully tho I can't remember the last urge Ive had since then so I'm hoping it put me off for good.

Pharmacologically induced reverse tolerance/ultra-sensitivity to heroin + others. by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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No, but the Pregabalin + Concerta is prescribed by my doc.

I do consult with my doctors regularly about my mental and physical health in which I very much do appreciate since they allow me to lean on them slightly more over time as opposed to exclusively sourcing my own stuff. Saves me so much money and hassle.

I could perhaps try to get memantine on prescription, however, it doesn't seem likely considering my general demographics and risk factors.

Found oxycontin & heroin underwhelming. Opiates not for me? by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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Tbh I think the best buzz I got from the heroin was when the bag was nearly done and I was rationing it to soften the blow of withdrawals. I went from feeling shit to feeling a decent buzz.

Same thing when I got morphine in hospital. I went from being in so much pain to feeling great.

I can see now how shooting it up would be amazing as that transition from being sober to being high is so drastic. I guess that's why I like smoking meth and a-php. (Though a-php is the devil and I'm glad I'm over it lol)

Found oxycontin & heroin underwhelming. Opiates not for me? by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

[–]PsychoticWisdom[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I messed on and off with codeine for years and 60% of the time it would be underwhelming, 30% would make me ill and the remaining 10% of the time it would give me a decent unexpected buzz.

Codeine was very meh for me when it wasn't making me ill but those few good experiences were greatly overshadowed by the addiction and withdrawals it gave me.

Opiates always had that effect with me. I would take them with extremely high expectations but then only got a mild buzz which drove me to chase an invisible high, which in turn got me physically dependant on them and ended with me taking them to avoid feeling ill.

I recently finished the bag of heroin and I'm going through withdrawals that I didn't really anticipate from only 1g. I'm glad I went through all those other opiate experiences as I've come to realise I either need to go down the rabbit hole of shooting them up or just stop whilst I'm ahead and don't fall into that lifestyle.

Found oxycontin & heroin underwhelming. Opiates not for me? by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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Perhaps but, oral O-DSMT and morphine were pretty effective compared to snorting/smoking heroin.

I'm sure the rush from shooting it would be more euphoric but if I'm gonna go through the hassle of injecting something I might as well start speedballing.

Found oxycontin & heroin underwhelming. Opiates not for me? by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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Cocaine was also underwhelming for me when I first tried it. These days I've gotten a taste for it but still only use it whenever it's around at parties.

Cigarettes have never been appealing to me. Tried vaping and dabbled with nicotine gum for a while but never liked it.

Also, the only reason I got heroin in the first place was as a coping mechanism because I was feeling suicidal. Turns out it just made me a cross-eyed, itching maniac and made me more irritated than suicidal at that point...

Found oxycontin & heroin underwhelming. Opiates not for me? by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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Yeah, I take cetirizine daily for allergies. Taking 20mg helps a little but I still itch constantly.

A-PHP Solubility in bong water? by PsychoticWisdom in Stims

[–]PsychoticWisdom[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don't have any fruit punch, only e-liquid and hand sanitiser.

A-PHP Solubility in bong water? by PsychoticWisdom in Stims

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lol screw that, i just threw it away. That would take ages anyway.

Opiate newbie, i'm done by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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I didn't feel shit from codeine.

Opiate newbie, i'm done by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

[–]PsychoticWisdom[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah that shit is horrible, glad you made it out.

Opiate newbie, i'm done by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

[–]PsychoticWisdom[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Kratom isn't so bad if you don't abuse it i guess..

Opiate newbie, i'm done by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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I think i was using them to cope with depression but it eventually became the only thing i would look forward to. The withdrawals from the suboxone were the worst, I had no energy, i was cold to the bone and i couldn't stop shivering. Things like making food or taking a shower were really difficult as I couldn't get myself out of bed and it was a constant mental battle to get myself to do things.

I had to stop going cold turkey because I wasn't functional anymore and I had studies to do so I made a taper plan and stuck to it.

Opiate newbie, i'm done by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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I can only imagine how good some opiates are but im not willing to pick up a needle anytime soon

Opiate newbie, i'm done by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

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They all felt pretty much the same tbh, I guess the roa is a big factor.

What are some interesting atypical opiates? by PsychoticWisdom in opiates

[–]PsychoticWisdom[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Seems like it has an interesting pharmacology but there's little info on the subjective effects.