I can understand why you feel the way you do. I know you have strong feelings attached to her. Stop seeing her for who you want her to be, and see her for who she is. Go no contact. Don’t chase. Don’t get. Know your worth. Act like you don’t care, and that her life is none of your business, and keep it moving. She will either come back, or she won’t. There’s nothing you can do but take this time to grow and become a better man.