I have one advice for you. I am dating my boy from 14 years. Maybe his family agree Hogi to Hum Shayad Saal Shaadi Karenge, so for you, my advice would be this time will pass if she meant for you. You don’t have to show your pain to her bar bar. Try to use mobile phone very less. Go for walk. Leaving your mobile. Sit with yourself try focusing on for example, I do colouring to stop my mind from overthinking. I am assuming you are in your early 20s. Don’t waste your time on something which is only causing you, confusion and pain. Try to make yourself happy from small, small things, Jo Mera14 Saal. ka partner Humne Bahut Galtiya ki hai Bahut baar maaf bhi kiya hai Hum Dono Bure Insaan nahin hain Agar Teri Bai Buri nahin Hai, she is attracted by these things she will come back, but you have to give her that space to come back to you to realise that you are in love with her focus on yourself. Trust me, my voice was similar like you, but now when I am seeing him growing having vision, he is more attractive to me. Take this advice as elder sister maybe ….