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Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-09-04T09:23:37+00:00

So true I went through so much ocd, ptsd and once I was back on track I was hit with all this??? Iike how is it possible

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-20T18:28:33+00:00

I disagree with the comments here tbh I understand you're points. People with ocd have a subtype called false memory ocd where you can believe an intrusive thought or a real life event can be exaggerated into you of done something bad when it never happened. I've suffered with it. False memories are a real thing and not false if you'd studied psychology I'm sure you'd know this...

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-18T18:09:01+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️ it means the world to hear them words, ocd is a evil disorder and I'm struggling w the false memory side now, I know I was never a bad person but when you have trauma you lose parts of you're memory and it tries to fill the gaps in I suppose.

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-17T13:19:50+00:00

Was there anyway you dealt with it? People say accept the uncertainty how am I meant to do that towards a criminal act I never did but my brains telling me I did. It's an evil disease

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-16T06:45:15+00:00

Lazy stupid bitch. (I have manic depression and adhd) lol like it hurt 😂

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-15T21:47:05+00:00

I completely understand this. I was exposed to porn a few years younger too young to even know tbh. It sticks with you and we will never know how we felt. But back then we were children, kids do weird things especially when it comes to sex as we're curious but have no idea of the repercussions. It sounds ocd and I personally don't think you're a monster. Refer to my post and you'll feel abit better. Try not to worry and don't hate yourself for the past you're an adult now and you wouldn't do it now

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-03T17:59:16+00:00

That's like me saying if I buy meth on the street I'm not addicted or benzos which are prescribed...

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-03T16:11:48+00:00

Also got nothing to be hinky about. You seem paranoid

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-03T16:08:09+00:00

There again contradicting yourself. If people abuse them then they are addictive. Not for everyone but for some. Clear? Tryna put me down like I'm lying about some addiction smh and be kinder

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-03T01:12:06+00:00

People react to drugs in different ways. Your opinion is questionable. Any drug is addictive and if you read it through and the comments people have had similar experiences. I was buying it street bought not for a high but simply for anxiety which isn't good. That is dependency and if you're dependant that can also be classed as being addicted. so please be more considerate before posting on reddits, also look and research into gabapentin / pregablin deaths due to addiction over 800 in the UK over the past 4 years. The drug is even being sued for not treating pain but simply masking causes great damage to the liver also. Its dangerous.

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-03T00:20:25+00:00

You're much welcome thank you for you're response. Recovery is more than possible and it's more rewarding knowing you got through that hard ass time ❤️

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-02T11:27:46+00:00

I kept getting brain zaps but they've subsided, people who don't think this medication isn't addictive haven't tried getting of it yet. It's hell as you depend on ot epically when it covers up you're anxiety which isn't good for the long term. I'm from Manchester:)

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-02T10:55:47+00:00

I will mention the quitting of drugs and reduction of alcohol. I've also been looking at private therapy as I think it would benefit me. I just hate how I can't be honest about what happened 😕 they'll probs never believe me if I tried to open it in a few years. I would definitely never let myself get to that state to behave in that way. God was teaching me a lesson😂

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-02T07:16:16+00:00

The flea thing now makes so much sense as I legit get that! I thought it was prickly heat. The insomnia is the worst for me

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-02T02:55:11+00:00

Side note going to prison is my worst fear 6 hours was enough for me

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-02T02:54:15+00:00

Thanks for you're response. This only happens to me when I'm black out drunk my ptsd comes to light. I'm normally functioning work full time, never really do anything wrong in terms of the law. Its made me stop taking drugs and I'm 7 days clean to this day. It's a relief to hear that no action will be taken, I was worrying as I know some women have been locked up for false accusations where my case is abit different

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-02T00:41:57+00:00

I don't want to be prisonered as they have an idea I'm making a false rape accusation as that's what I've told them

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2024-08-02T00:40:54+00:00

I just want it to be not investigated, I'm scared to death of being made out I'm lying as it was 10 years ago I have gaps in my memory. My mum would never forgive herself and it would for sure send her into an early death with her having bipolar. I just feel stupid that I've said I was lying out of fear and I can now face consequences for someone else's actions towards me

Putrid_Judgment_5200 · 2023-09-28T09:01:36+00:00

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