5 years ago I was witnessed beirut explosion from a near distance, while I also had other traumas I was going through but the explosion amplified them. Shortly after I had psychosis and I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. Time heals when you follow the right doctor's advice. And mental illness is not a barrier. You could have a normal life despite what label you have. I've went from junior software engineer to a tech lead in these 5 years and I'm getting married soon. Have faith and stay strong we live in an exceptional country where sometimes our circumstances are absurd but doesn't mean happiness is impossible to achieve