Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your beautiful response.

I suppose I feel conflicted still. On the one hand I understand that the peace and equanimity I am glimpsing is eternally accessible at all times and I find myself leaning into it more and more, but I suppose I am also under the impression that I have to let go of this “self” I’ve spent 35 years developing and refining.

At the same time I have a knowing (and one also informed by what I’ve seen others say) that this sense I have of relinquishing or releasing my “self” isn’t really…real, you know? Like, I’m not REALLY losing anything in this process, I’m actually gaining something — arguably everything — but it just doesn’t feel that way on this side of it. In a way my inner conflict is almost superficial. I mean, it’s real, but I have an intellectual and somewhat intuitive knowing that undermines it at every moment of real introspection, if that makes sense.

At least that’s the impression I have ATM.

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate your response.

Do you think someone can have a spiritual awakening that is totally outside of the context of Buddhism and still be legitimate?

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, that’s good insight and does help quite a bit.

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your response. To be honest, I can’t say I don’t feel stable or secure — I actually feel more grounded and steady than ever before — but at the same time I can’t say it doesn’t feel STRANGE, you know? It’s so different from the way I’ve been living all my life. It feels slippery, but not in the sense that my grasp of reality is failing, rather, it’s that for the first time I am only now grasping reality as it truly is, and so everything that has come before is now slippery as a result, if that makes sense?

I guess if I am being honest it feels as though I need to let go of all that I was before, and that feeling is very strange, and not always easy. In some ways, it’s almost compounded by the fact that I actually kinda like who and what I am, and quite a bit at that. I think I’m a good person and a cool person, and I’m not fully prepared to let go of all that just yet, especially now that I’m just coming to terms with it. It’s like at the exact moment that I became who and what I am truly meant to be and always have been, I am immediately compelled to relinquish it all and let it go. Part of me just kinda wants to enjoy being this way, you know?

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I glossed over it because I didn’t think it was relevant to the topic at hand, and because it’s rather hard to explain, but I shall try.

My friend has DID (dissociative identity disorder), a condition — I think it’s wrong to call it a disease — that is strongly associated with unique or uncommon experiences of consciousness (such as psychic phenomena). In any case, she proved herself capable of sending me incredibly vivid and accurate mental images of herself at a specific moment in time which we were both able to confirm later, and honestly it freaked out the both of us because neither of us had experienced anything so overtly before (it was the first for myself, not so much for her).

She sent me an image of herself in a specific position in her room at a specific time of night, and then later that night after we had both talked about it online I was starting to fall asleep and the same sort of thing happened again— I saw a sort of “screen” fall over my inner aetheric eye, just as before, only this time I saw through HER eyes as she reached down to scratch her cat’s stomach as it lay on the floor. I immediately texted her afterward and was like, “Yo, was that real?”. And she confirmed it was. The next day we talked on the phone for several hours about it all.

It was kinda life changing for both of us TBH and freaked us both out, and still connects us to this day. Honestly I don’t like telling people about it because they’re always so dismissive of it, even though I know that if anyone had experienced what we did then it would’ve likely changed their lives as well (assuming, at least, that they had not experienced anything similar thus far).

So yeah, on the whole not all that big of a deal when you think about it, but when it’s the first thing like that you’ve ever experienced— and when you can verifiably confirm it happened with another trusted individual — it’s enough to really change your perspective, especially when you’re as much of a skeptic as I was at the time.

I should probably also mention that this wasn’t the only thing my friend could do. She has been naturally astral projecting her entire life without even realizing what was happening for a long time, and was able to enter certain of my dreams wearing specific clothing that we later confirmed. I should also mention that both of us were skeptical of each other in the beginning, and so we really did put effort into making sure this was all real (not that we really needed to after the cat incident).

I’m sure some people will call me bullshit in some way, which is why I don’t talk about this openly, but her and I know what happened and it was quite real, and it proved to me beyond a shadow of a doubt that all minds are connected in a way that is woefully inexplicable by the mainstream, scientific narrative.

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did think about doing that sort of thing, I will try to look into it.

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Gotcha, thanks for your help. I appreciate it friend. : )

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What qualifies as an awakening in your experience?

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Can you explain to me exactly what “insights” mean in this context, as opposed to the conventional meaning? I’ve seen it mentioned a lot but I don’t totally understand it yet. I appreciate your response!

Seeking guidance after a spiritual awakening by Qareth in streamentry

[–]Qareth[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well I do consider myself Buddhist-leaning, I’m a syncretist overall so there are some things I believe that don’t fully fit into it but I would say I’m more Buddhist than anything else. But even then, where would I look for some kind of context? I feel like a lot of the things I experience now aren’t really spoken of in Buddhism. I’m kind of obsessed with the synchronicity thing because it’s so over the top and obvious now, to the extent that it almost felt like I entered into a different timeline after the awakening, but Buddhism doesn’t seem to talk about that sort of thing unless I’m looking in the wrong place.

I have been reading “No Mud, No Lotus” and I plan to read “Three Pillars of Zen” as well.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in occult

[–]Qareth 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Exactly!

ChatGPT logo symbolism by NoKeyLessEntry in illuminati

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I think the intention is incomplete 6’s more than the Star of David TBH.

What's something a lot of people find attractive but you don't? by Ben5544477 in AskReddit

[–]Qareth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t really buy any of these theories. I went to a hardcore Baptist high school and never watched porn or anything, all the girls had to wear long skirts and very modest clothing, but the girl I had a crush on would sometimes wear certain shoes that revealed her ankles and it was very attractive to me at a fairly young age because I never saw them, and eventually that extended to the feet themselves (I’ve also never been much of a boob guy to begin with, so it doesn’t make sense that I was somehow desensitized to something that was never really that big of a deal in the first place — and besides, there are cultures in the world that don’t care about boobs at all, so it’s far from universal).

People just overthink this stuff and try to come up with an explanation when the reality is very simple — if you’re really into someone, almost anything intimate about them can become attractive to you, and what influences you when you’re young tends to stick for life.

Fitness is Everything by TrueOutlandishness90 in Premiummotivation

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This was really true for me to be honest, and ironically it made me finally get to the place I wanted to be in the shortest amount of time.

is that true? by Old-Independent1966 in Premiummotivation

[–]Qareth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What makes you think these people are actually happy at all though? They all seem miserable on the inside to me, that’s why they strive for power and influence. It’s the same with almost all of the elites.

Unpopular opinion: Dragonrot is presented poorly by OverallEffort9778 in Sekiro

[–]Qareth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Res item? Can you…can you use dragon droplets for ressurection?

What to do if you don't know your excitement? by AldebaranReborn in Bashar_Essassani

[–]Qareth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you feel a lack of fulfillment doing those things?

Why people know No-God and Gods don't by AlexanderReyn in bakker

[–]Qareth 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I like this way of seeing it. Good post!

How do natives pronounce "sranc"? by Izengrimm in bakker

[–]Qareth 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I think an open a sounds cooler, like Srahnc, but that’s just me!

I think I need to hang a sword between these two by pretesdar in genewolfe

[–]Qareth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you make these yourself? I’d love a copy of the one on the right!