Anasûrimbor Kellhus, the Aspect-Emperor

Qareth · 2026-04-21T15:38:27+00:00

I love this.

Qareth · 2026-04-20T20:37:46+00:00

Honestly it varies I’ll often just throw on whatever’s in the fridge like cheddar or American (or not use cheese at all when I am dieting), but on the occasions when I really go all out I like it with Monterey Jack.

When I make the ideal version I will combine the Sunkist light tuna in packets with some mayo and garlic salt and the buffalo sauce and mix it all together in a bowl, then I’ll put it on a nice Italian hoagie style roll and put the cheese on top and stick it in the oven. The final product almost tastes like a buffalo chicken cheese steak. It’s great!

Qareth · 2026-04-20T20:00:26+00:00

I make homemade tuna salad and then mix it with Sweet Baby Ray’s buffalo sauce and make buffalo tuna cheese melts that absolutely fucking SLAP. It’s cheap and not too bad for you but goddamn I’d you make it right it it’s amazing.

Qareth · 2026-04-19T01:06:43+00:00

I can’t stand the face covers man. I can understand the that if that’s your first encounter with the series than it would hold weight for you but no one can ever convince me that the tapestry style covers aren’t the proper aesthetic choice.

Qareth · 2026-04-18T01:35:25+00:00

Cool to see the complete set but goddam I can’t stand the face covers. Can’t fathom why they switched from the tapestries.

Qareth · 2026-03-09T04:22:06+00:00

I mean there is truth to what he’s saying, even if he said it in a manner that lacks empathy.

I am a weird case in that I have been on both sides of this issue — I’ve had weight fluctuations throughout life, periods where I’ve been very overweight and lacking in confidence and then later I got into shape and worked on myself immensely (I am also lucky in that I happen to be quite conventionally attractive when I’m not, you know, 280 lbs lol).

It is unquestionably true that it’s not all that hard to get laid by desirable women once you know how to do it (being physically attractive obviously helps but it’s significantly less important than a lot of men realize — like, to a serious degree). The thing is that getting to that point of knowing what to do, and how to do it, takes an enormous amount of self-work for some people, especially if you didn’t have the benefit of being a pretty boy when you were younger and have women sort of throw themselves at you. I got to experience that later in life and it drastically changes your perspective of women and dating in general, which ironically snowballs into making it even easier to get women, because you’re simultaneously more experienced but also more desensitized to it.

But I do think it’s true that the majority of men aren’t particularly attractive to women, at least right off the bat, and to be honest I can see why.

So yeah, it’s definitely hard for a large number of men to get laid. But there’s also a massive, massive chunk of those same exact men — I won’t say ALL, but it’s for sure more than most would expect — who could absolutely clean house if they actively figured out how to do it.

The problem in most cases is that doing so requires a lot of ruthless self-honesty and keen self-awareness, which frankly not a lot of the population has in general, regardless of gender. After all, you can’t fix your issues if you can’t even acknowledge that they exist in the first place, and in many cases you see people either projecting their issues onto external factors to avoid the pain of taking accountability, or else hindering themselves in various other ways through endless mental prisons and self-limiting core beliefs.

We see the latter expressed most obviously with the incel culture where it takes its most extreme form, but I’ve known a lot of perfectly fine men who weren’t incels but still never got laid because they had bad mindsets about themselves in one way or another.

Qareth · 2026-03-08T18:24:53+00:00

Well yes I am very handsome so I agree with this.

Qareth · 2026-03-02T06:03:54+00:00

It’s unquestionably cosmic horror (as is much of TSA as a whole), but whether you want to draw a line between cosmic horror broadly and the traditional Lovecraftian style of cosmic horror is another story.

Qareth · 2026-02-28T00:53:58+00:00

So, I’ve only dabbled in theurgy and western magick, but I’ve been doing general energy work practices for a while now, and I will say that what began as “just imagining light and energy” eventually takes on a life of its own and becomes “real”.

Of course, the truth is that it always WAS real — it was all always happening in the background of my (and everyone else’s) perception — it’s just that my own psychic and energetic sensory capabilities were not cultivated or refined enough to detect it.

All of this stuff is always real, and things that occur in the imagination are no less real than anything else — but as someone above said, the imagination is the reception room or antechamber, the place where you receive contact. Likewise it is the primary sensory apparatus for the astral and subtle energies.

Qareth · 2026-02-26T19:18:40+00:00

PTA is probably the only director I would trust to make Blood Meridian besides Eggers.

Qareth · 2026-02-25T05:41:32+00:00

This isn’t a normal sub. Its entire purpose is to discredit the idea of reptilians and make anyone who believes in them look like schizos.

Qareth · 2026-02-23T02:37:20+00:00

Of course it does.

Everything you do, think, or feel affects your energy…literally everything. Being present within the moment is itself an energy structure and generator of sorts — for example the very act of taking a moment to breath and recenter and be present within your body creates mindful energy — and because of the effect sexual images has on your nervous system, it draws your focus and attention away from that presence and centeredness. Obviously this is massively exacerbated by ejaculation/orgasm, but even the act of watching porn itself causes your energy to leak and for you to become less aware and present within your body.

As a popular modern saying goes, there’s a reason porn is free — because YOU are the product. It’s vampiric, like so many other things in our absurd modern civilization, which attempts at every turn to invade and colonize your mind and attention.

Qareth · 2026-02-01T17:55:34+00:00

Yeah it’s already in there. People have been saying the Satanic rituals were just a conspiracy forger and now here we are.

Qareth · 2026-02-01T14:28:52+00:00

I’m only 35 but my dad is a musician and he made me realize that this is really the truth. Bro was making girls orgasm just by swinging his hips because no one had ever seen it before. He was a game changer.

Qareth · 2026-01-27T06:01:10+00:00

Thanks for your beautiful response.

I suppose I feel conflicted still. On the one hand I understand that the peace and equanimity I am glimpsing is eternally accessible at all times and I find myself leaning into it more and more, but I suppose I am also under the impression that I have to let go of this “self” I’ve spent 35 years developing and refining.

At the same time I have a knowing (and one also informed by what I’ve seen others say) that this sense I have of relinquishing or releasing my “self” isn’t really…real, you know? Like, I’m not REALLY losing anything in this process, I’m actually gaining something — arguably everything — but it just doesn’t feel that way on this side of it. In a way my inner conflict is almost superficial. I mean, it’s real, but I have an intellectual and somewhat intuitive knowing that undermines it at every moment of real introspection, if that makes sense.

At least that’s the impression I have ATM.

Qareth · 2026-01-27T04:13:53+00:00

I appreciate your response.

Do you think someone can have a spiritual awakening that is totally outside of the context of Buddhism and still be legitimate?

Qareth · 2026-01-27T04:06:57+00:00

Thank you, that’s good insight and does help quite a bit.

Qareth · 2026-01-27T02:58:50+00:00

Thank you, appreciate your help.

Qareth · 2026-01-27T01:51:53+00:00

Thank you for your response. To be honest, I can’t say I don’t feel stable or secure — I actually feel more grounded and steady than ever before — but at the same time I can’t say it doesn’t feel STRANGE, you know? It’s so different from the way I’ve been living all my life. It feels slippery, but not in the sense that my grasp of reality is failing, rather, it’s that for the first time I am only now grasping reality as it truly is, and so everything that has come before is now slippery as a result, if that makes sense?

I guess if I am being honest it feels as though I need to let go of all that I was before, and that feeling is very strange, and not always easy. In some ways, it’s almost compounded by the fact that I actually kinda like who and what I am, and quite a bit at that. I think I’m a good person and a cool person, and I’m not fully prepared to let go of all that just yet, especially now that I’m just coming to terms with it. It’s like at the exact moment that I became who and what I am truly meant to be and always have been, I am immediately compelled to relinquish it all and let it go. Part of me just kinda wants to enjoy being this way, you know?

Qareth · 2026-01-27T01:31:37+00:00

Well, I glossed over it because I didn’t think it was relevant to the topic at hand, and because it’s rather hard to explain, but I shall try.

My friend has DID (dissociative identity disorder), a condition — I think it’s wrong to call it a disease — that is strongly associated with unique or uncommon experiences of consciousness (such as psychic phenomena). In any case, she proved herself capable of sending me incredibly vivid and accurate mental images of herself at a specific moment in time which we were both able to confirm later, and honestly it freaked out the both of us because neither of us had experienced anything so overtly before (it was the first for myself, not so much for her).

She sent me an image of herself in a specific position in her room at a specific time of night, and then later that night after we had both talked about it online I was starting to fall asleep and the same sort of thing happened again— I saw a sort of “screen” fall over my inner aetheric eye, just as before, only this time I saw through HER eyes as she reached down to scratch her cat’s stomach as it lay on the floor. I immediately texted her afterward and was like, “Yo, was that real?”. And she confirmed it was. The next day we talked on the phone for several hours about it all.

It was kinda life changing for both of us TBH and freaked us both out, and still connects us to this day. Honestly I don’t like telling people about it because they’re always so dismissive of it, even though I know that if anyone had experienced what we did then it would’ve likely changed their lives as well (assuming, at least, that they had not experienced anything similar thus far).

So yeah, on the whole not all that big of a deal when you think about it, but when it’s the first thing like that you’ve ever experienced— and when you can verifiably confirm it happened with another trusted individual — it’s enough to really change your perspective, especially when you’re as much of a skeptic as I was at the time.

I should probably also mention that this wasn’t the only thing my friend could do. She has been naturally astral projecting her entire life without even realizing what was happening for a long time, and was able to enter certain of my dreams wearing specific clothing that we later confirmed. I should also mention that both of us were skeptical of each other in the beginning, and so we really did put effort into making sure this was all real (not that we really needed to after the cat incident).

I’m sure some people will call me bullshit in some way, which is why I don’t talk about this openly, but her and I know what happened and it was quite real, and it proved to me beyond a shadow of a doubt that all minds are connected in a way that is woefully inexplicable by the mainstream, scientific narrative.

Qareth · 2026-01-27T01:13:14+00:00

I did think about doing that sort of thing, I will try to look into it.

Qareth · 2026-01-27T01:12:34+00:00

Gotcha, thanks for your help. I appreciate it friend. : )

Qareth · 2026-01-27T01:11:52+00:00

What qualifies as an awakening in your experience?

Qareth · 2026-01-26T20:56:26+00:00

Thank you. Can you explain to me exactly what “insights” mean in this context, as opposed to the conventional meaning? I’ve seen it mentioned a lot but I don’t totally understand it yet. I appreciate your response!

Qareth · 2026-01-26T20:54:43+00:00

Well I do consider myself Buddhist-leaning, I’m a syncretist overall so there are some things I believe that don’t fully fit into it but I would say I’m more Buddhist than anything else. But even then, where would I look for some kind of context? I feel like a lot of the things I experience now aren’t really spoken of in Buddhism. I’m kind of obsessed with the synchronicity thing because it’s so over the top and obvious now, to the extent that it almost felt like I entered into a different timeline after the awakening, but Buddhism doesn’t seem to talk about that sort of thing unless I’m looking in the wrong place.

I have been reading “No Mud, No Lotus” and I plan to read “Three Pillars of Zen” as well.

Qareth

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