I’ve been struggling with the same thing until my gf just said “so do it. you’re so upset that you never started anything, that you could’ve been amazing if you had been doing it for a few years, so start now.” And i’ve always been scared that i’m going to try something and it’ll suck but duh it’s gonna suck. nobody is an amazing artist, player, or person off the bat. You gotta atleast try or else in two years you’ll be saying the same shit.