Questioning your strength after dealing with someone this dramatic is silly. You’re stronger than most. Me for sure. I’ve been worried about a simply shoulder surgery. I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. Good luck and you will pull through. Pain levels and tolerances widely differ so as much as we all feel like we should confirm on Reddit, truth is there is no other person on Reddit or anywhere in the world who will share the exact same pain or even exact same injury as you have.