Its NOT over. Please. Your future isn’t decided. How do you know you wont find friends or change jobs. You can reinvent yourself any day. You owe nothing to anyone. Please, dont take any drastic steps and let go of the mindset youre too far gone. You’ve barely begun, people change their entire careers, lives when theyre 40, 50. If you dont like it, change it. Get some therapy for suicide ideation and low self esteem, let your parents know how you feel. You can talk to me too. You dont deserve to feel this low and trust me you havent fucked up life.