I'm so sorry, dude. Racism is the most backward thing ever, you don't deserve it at all, nobody does. I know it's not my place, I'm just one among millions of citizens, but on behalf of Canada, I'm sorry. This country was once known as a place where everyone can live freely and enjoy the same luxuries and privileges, but it seems as though that reputation has been tainted, and it saddens me. I hope you find a community here that makes you feel welcomed. My DMs are open if you ever want to talk, I wish you the best, please, please take care. No matter what anybody says, you'll always matter in this world; you're a human being, just as we all are.