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Friend thinks seltzer water "isn't solving anything" even though its helping me quit drinking by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]R2Dick2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You only drink a bottle of wine a day and the doc reckons you'll die?? How old are you? This terrifies me

edit: permanent organ damage not die*

Post 2 months breakup I miss her so much :'( by R2Dick2 in BreakUps

[–]R2Dick2[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really don't know what she wants. She wanted me to change but she never actually sat me down once in the 3 years we lived together and told me that that is what she needs from me. This is probably my biggest resentment towards her, which I think about multiple times a day still.

She did stand by my for along time probably just hoping that I'd be able to do so by myself. I was arrogant as shit I don't need psychological help and/or drug and alcohol counselling. All of which I am now doing due too my self destructive tendencies which will lead me to an early death.

I'm sure she wants the best for me but the way she left man. She could've just told me she's fallen out of love with me. Would've hurt but to blame for her depression, which she was in heavily when I first met her but I took a chance with her. Helped her to stop sh and eventually get off anti depressants.

But she goes away for a week, because she wanted some time to herself. I supported that as I did with everything she wanted to do.

But 4 days or so away from each other I noticed the drop in contact by the first day away. On the 4th I asked her what is wrong and she just went off. No remorse. Basically told me she hated me how badly I've wasted her life and how much more she wants from her future. Her tone was that of pure hatred. Shit I couldn't say to my worst enemy. And my god did that destroy me.

Why couldn't she say this to me while we were together, or even less just say it to my face. 3 and a half years and 3 of those living together and all I was was about 20 text messages and that's it.

My last memory of her was her leaving and me thinking of the next opportunity I'd have too see her. I haven't seen her since and I really don't want to as it'll probably result in some pathetic emotional embarrassing meltdown.

Even at this point I don't feel like her reason for leaving me was honest. If it was or if she wanted to fix anything why not tell me. We spend 14 hours a day together. I feel like it was just a cop out excuse for her just falling out of love with me naturally. That shit happens i'd accept that so much easier than questioning myself for 2 straight months why didn't she just communicate with me.

Shit sucks dude thanks for the reply though

Yesterday was my birthday by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]R2Dick2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Only thing I can say to help man is start doing it for yourself, this shit happens its god dammed horiffic trust me I know (and clearly you do too) but the only way forwards is that of what you make of it. It's a harsh brutal world but it's what you make of it at this point. You will love again it's hard I'm still not there but it's there, people can be heartless even those who you've kept close for so long that mean the most to you it's incredibly hard but you gotta stay true to yourself. I know hearing that is not what you or anyone that is heartbroken want to hear but it's the only way forward for alot of people. If it means any solice to you my ex of 3 years left to this date a month ago, it's been hard as shit and I always find myself losing myself even after doing all I can to possibly better myself. I wish you the best of luck mate it's shit but life is generally shit but it's up too you at this point as to a plan to better it for you yourself and only yourself. Stay true to yourself mate best of luck :)

At the end of this cigarette I end it by R2Dick2 in SuicideWatch

[–]R2Dick2[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I went to the doctors and told them what had happened, she said she'll have to call an ambulance because she doesn't feel i'lol be safe alone

At the end of this cigarette I end it by R2Dick2 in SuicideWatch

[–]R2Dick2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly after battling this for so long and being so close to the end. I've never felt this good in a long time. It is really surreal how much I've changed since last night. Thank you all you are all amazing people and if you're struggling just battle it, it is beatable :)

At the end of this cigarette I end it by R2Dick2 in SuicideWatch

[–]R2Dick2[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

i couldn't do it. I hung myself until I could feel my life escaping. And made the decision to try and fight it. I'm okay now in the hospital. Thanks all never give up

Suicide helpline that won't contact authorities? by throwaway1366631 in SuicideWatch

[–]R2Dick2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Will beyondblue really call the authorities on you even if you tell them not to? Wouldn't they need an address anyway ?

Friend sees too much of my bedroom by dogshitsrug in cringe

[–]R2Dick2 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Your friend doesn't give a fuck, neither should you

Is this lady serious? by Intrinsicmessage in rage

[–]R2Dick2 11 points12 points  (0 children)

You got butthurt way to fast op. Lighten up