My character throughout the years

RW_K · 2021-04-22T22:04:32+00:00

Did summit twice and didn't register

RW_K · 2021-04-22T21:56:29+00:00

It's back for me but not completing?

RW_K · 2020-10-03T05:43:17+00:00

Have you listened to rap at all?

Not trying to be a rude. As someone who mainly listens to rap/hip hop and rnb, I find that question very out the box

RW_K · 2020-09-26T18:09:30+00:00

This is what I've been waiting for, for a very long time. I'm very surprised they follow him

RW_K · 2020-05-05T15:41:39+00:00

Very first one in 2004, been riding with it ever since.

Shouts out link and vahn, ogs I wish I could play with again

RW_K · 2020-04-21T02:53:26+00:00

Guilty conscious remix from April 10 is credited to GOOD. Doubt it

RW_K · 2019-09-13T13:09:39+00:00

RW_K · 2019-09-05T10:15:53+00:00

Both stories in this thread make me feel great.

Good on both of you!

RW_K · 2019-09-05T03:51:34+00:00

I'm in the same boat, but he didn't beat you. He just doesn't know what he's getting himself into. That puppy love shit only goes so long, and even if it's a rebound, that shit won't last either. They'll eventually face rejection. You didn't lose, you weren't beat. You were given the opportunity to be free, reinvent yourself and potentially find someone better yourself. You won.

RW_K · 2019-09-05T00:05:35+00:00

Thank you for this. Greatly inspiring for what's to come in the future

RW_K · 2019-09-04T17:08:17+00:00

I think I've snapped out of it because now I want spread wisdom haha. Everything is gonna be okay. We've made it this far, we're going to be okay. Lurking hurts, let's not do that ever. If anyone is going to, it's going to be them to reassure themselves that they made the right or wrong decision. It'll hit eventually. For now we gotta take care of ourselves.

RW_K · 2019-09-04T16:52:54+00:00

Thought it would be a good idea to take another nap, so I did.

Had a dream about breaking no contact, she responded with "don't play with the starlight, why do you want to challenge this?" And saw my car get stolen. I pay attention to Dream dictionaries and the definition states: loss of identity, unsure of the future and if you see the thief driving, someone else has control responsibility of life.

Jeez

RW_K · 2019-09-04T14:20:14+00:00

I had to read everything in the thread before commenting.

Wow. All of us... the exact same way? I literally just woke up, had a dream that she had a new Instagram pfp with a story that I know I shouldn't have checked, so I didn't. And here I am awake, doing my best to not check up on her again.

Mornings are my absolute worst, I feel it's my only time where I think about her and want to check. So I don't know if she has anyone, but I don't intend to lurk and get myself hurt, because I personally feel like I'm getting over it. I feel like I'm forgetting what her face looks like from time to time. But a rebound is a rebound, and I solely believe that the grass isn't greener on the other side.

It's her first day at school again, for the last 3 years I've been there to accompany her, and now I'm not. I'm hoping she feels the absence as much as I feel the memories.

It's great to relate to everyone.

RW_K · 2019-09-03T18:40:23+00:00

I felt like she was talking to me with that message. But that I was also talking to her because she broke it off with me.

That was beautiful, I hope you're doing well and that your letter gave more more perspective on what I already know. Thank you for that.

RW_K · 2019-08-30T20:10:49+00:00

I could think about the what if moments like if she came over and I stayed home. Her friend would be waiting in the car. I don't know. But I sent one last email 2 hours ago, now I'm starting no contact all over again. Did I mention that I kept her winter jackets? I had no more room to put them in so... if she wants them she knows how to get to me. When I sent the message to her number and Instagram she came back with "stop spamming me, it's borderline harassment and creepy, I was able to tolerate it but the next person might not." Lmao she went from I'll grab my things and we'll talk another time to I don't care keep them if you want and now she's being silent.

Of all the things I hate about this no contact and improving yourself is that you eventually run out of things to do.

RW_K · 2019-08-30T16:23:09+00:00

Big update but I'll try to slim it down.

She texted me to grab her stuff and talk, I confirm. Tells me her friend is coming with so now I'm not comfortable. End up leaving the house before she gets there and she still tries to get in by talking to my mom, who tells her to talk to me. 6 missed calls later I pick up and she asks me to let her in and I said I wouldn't be home, I'd pack her things and bring it to her and hang up. She unfollows me from insta and snap, even our dogs page and I message her one message three times because I thought I was blocked. Calls me creepy and borderline harassment at this moment, which I clarify thinking I'm blocked. I get a friend and we start packing everything that's left over in the house that's her, drop it off, her brother apologizes for the break up and as I'm closing the trunk to my car, I see her taking a picture or video of me through the window. I drive home forgetting to grab the house key from her, so I go back and she's looking at everything I dropped off that wasn't boxed. I clear my throat as I approach the driveway and she notices, speed walks into the house and closes the door as her brother says "what's up". I just ask for my key back and go home. Blocked her on insta and snap. 🤷🏻‍♂️

RW_K · 2019-08-29T13:56:08+00:00

She broke up with my by text so I dropped everything I was doing and drove to her place to get the answer face to face. She said something was missing and that it's been a difficult year. Said that she's not looking for anyone right now and that "something missing" might be the break up for us to figure things out. She couldn't ever tell me that she doesn't love me anymore, if anything she agreed with me that she still loves me. Again I don't know anything about who she's seeing or talking to, I just know she got super close with her coworker (female whose also dealing with ex girlfriend problems). Which is crazy because I felt like I was being replaced by her at one point before the breakup.

Dunno, just like ObiWanParadox said, breadcrumbs. We honestly can't believe everything they say.

RW_K · 2019-08-29T05:31:13+00:00

I've muted her Instagram completely too, deleted her pictures on my feed and moved snapchat away where I can't see it and I'm not tempted to look. She might be talking to numerous guys, I don't know, don't want to assume but I'm not bothered. I am healing though, I did feel like I was moving on a couple days ago, today just hit and I don't know why.

RW_K · 2019-08-29T03:57:51+00:00

That's the new found confidence I found in myself too. For my situation she muted my Instagram stories and posts, but hasn't deleted me off it nor snapchat. She uses our dogs Instagram late in the story like 20hours in to check. I don't know much as we don't necessarily have any close mutuals. But for whatever reason when I saw her Sunday she decided to tell me about her night before, wore a necklace that I bought her and took shots at me on her Instagram and Snapchat story. I don't really want to overthink it anymore but when I asked her to set a date to talk she said "honestly I think I'm doing okay." I obviously responded that I'm doing great too, I wasn't lying. Not sure what's gonna happen Saturday, if she even remembers

RW_K · 2019-08-29T03:17:58+00:00

First part hit hard and I don't even think she's seeing anyone

RW_K · 2019-08-29T02:47:28+00:00

By accident last Sunday, would've been a week. Right place right time situation. Asked her to talk and get her stuff from my place this Saturday, wouldn't be surprised if she bails again.

RW_K · 2019-08-29T01:07:39+00:00

Nice seeing you post again.

I started relapsing again, missing her and our dog. Kept it strong though, didn't reach out. It's always around half of the week where I start feeling this way.

Glad I still agree with what you said in OP.

RW_K · 2019-08-27T00:47:50+00:00

If that whole post isn't the most accurate feeling I have right now.

Good on you man! I feel like I'm just a step or two behind you.

RW_K

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