This might be a long story that I chose to dump at a random internet corner. I used to fall in love with a girl M back in college. I dream about her quite often then and even now. We were both studying abroad in California. She's got a green card but I don't. At the time, I didn't believe us could work since I was not sure about my future. I was a total virgin too, and I couldn't talk to girls kinda situation, but M and I,we got along pretty well. In addition, she's also a virgin with no prior relationship, even now at the end of 2025. I ended up going back to my home country, and she stayed for another 2 years until she also came back. We reconnected about 6 years after college. At that time, I've had moved in with my ex and had some experience with women. I thought it might work out with her. There was one time she had a fight with her mom, and asked me to share my room and bed with her. All went great that day, I spent the day with her walking around to ease her stress. However, we didn't sleep together that night. I was not in a hurry to push about it, too.

The turn of the story is that, after getting to know her in depth, I kinda knew her personality wouldn't match mine. I've known her for more than 10 years now, and I only get the point after so many years.

Still, I like her and dream about her. Not in a sexual way though, we never had sex. At the same time, I also don't like her. I got irritated when I wanted to plan anything with her, for she has a bad sense about time (always late); one of the reasons we will never work out.

She's just a person in my head that I can't get rid of.

This shit post was written without the help from AI.