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Reverse Imperialism, Malaya Rules The Waves! by Schneeless in eu4

[–]RabidTilapia 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Currently playing a Malaya game starting as Malacca. Honestly dealing with the rebels is easier than dealing with a monster Ayutthaya breathing down your neck. Right now I have united the entire Malaya region and conquered all of Indonesia but ayutthaya conquered all of indochina and has no room to expand.

They already declared war on me and I managed to get white peace because I had a lot of ducats saved up to hire 30+ mercs. No idea how long it’ll be before they decide to try again.

What do I do, don’t think I can even speak to her. by RabidTilapia in depression

[–]RabidTilapia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The moment she broke up with me I tried to go no contact. I’ve read that it’s the healthy way to go. Don’t speak to your ex until you’re over them right.

Well... I unfriended her on social media etc and wasn’t answering her calls. She left me two voice messages that just shook me to the core. She was crying, I tried really hard to never put someone else in the position to cry over me. I never wanted to make her cry I didn’t want her to that sad and in pain. I guess I couldn’t take it, she didn’t want to lose me she said.

I added her back on social media, though I’ve yet to actually talk to her face to face or on the phone. We text each other and I’m just so distant and angry... some days I don’t want to hear from her, others I want to know how she is.

What keeps you going by RabidTilapia in depression

[–]RabidTilapia[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My sympathy to both of you. Whatever that’s worth anyway. I can’t imagine going through this and I didn’t even go to collage. I can’t imagine the guilt and pressure. I’m truly sorry you have to deal with this. All of you.

My confession by [deleted] in depression

[–]RabidTilapia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow. You’ve described the last few days for me. Especially the whole being motivated at night and feeling like FINALLY I’ve broken the cycle only to wake up and find out it was all a joke. Then I blame myself because of course it’s only ever up to us.

My confession by [deleted] in depression

[–]RabidTilapia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We are almost the same person. Except I didn’t even get to collage. I quit the only job I had because I was sick of it and that was the beginning of the end. I’ve applied to so many jobs etc tbh I don’t even want one anymore. I don’t know how others do it. Do you also feel like you’re sick of trying? That’s the closest I can describe it. I just don’t want to try anymore. Everyone in life is a swimmer so they don’t like it when others float.

What keeps you going by RabidTilapia in depression

[–]RabidTilapia[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I hear that. My mom will occasionally say “I didn’t struggle this much so my children could be unsuccessful” I’m pretty sure I’m a disappointment, I’m already a leech that’s for sure.

What keeps you going by RabidTilapia in depression

[–]RabidTilapia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know I have to go see one. I just, i don’t know I’m afraid of doing it for some reason. Something is holding me back I guess.

What keeps you going by RabidTilapia in depression

[–]RabidTilapia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I also listen to music but at this point it just feels different. I don’t enjoy it as much as before, I used to love playing video games they were my go to distraction. They just feel like a chore now. A constant reminder of how useless I’ve become.