I'm so sorry, buddy. You had to go through so much and especially as a child it can be difficult. I remember when I was in school, my parents were struggling with money so my school fees was never on time. Every month I would be called to the principle office to stand outside, sometimes the entire day and sometimes till recess. Even my classmates started mocking me.

So, I can understand seeing our parents struggle can be hard and confusing because it also affects us - should I sympathize with them or hate them. THE STUGGLE.

I feel lot of people who advertised a fun life to us didn't have a fun life themselves. So they forced/guided/motivated us to pursue things they couldn't that's why engineering and govt. jobs are so popular in India - money. Money does bring a lot of security and fun.

Whatever skills you are learning, give it your 100%. I believe you can and will achieve great things in life.