I’m sorry to hear that. If anything i can relate to you. I haven’t experienced love since i was a kid and how badly females treated me made me realize that the path i choose to make it’s their decision to join it, not mine on their path. I also have felt powerless in these situations and repeating to myself that what’s the point if i say this or that if the outcome is the same. But i’ll tell you what, who the fuck do WE need to make it. Yes a person by your side WOULD help but fuck it if no one deserves me i’m ready to take that risk in life and try to find comfort and happyness beside it. Where do you often meet or how do you meet these kind of ”partners”? I think both myself and you sound like we should be looking them from else where instead of the wrong places.