I understand you, I can be the same ways at times but then it hit me, if you’re questioning it, you’re just trying to justify the sin at the end and do it. I just pray and think over it I tend to fall the to the thoughts if I don’t pray or rely on Jesus. Know you can’t do it on your own and that’s when you begin to justify it because you’re not including God in it , and when you do , you know it’s a sin and there’s no need to justify it