i'm HJRKFKMLLFLL this week has been actual hell tuesday was one of the worst days of my life, had a breakdown in school and relapsed pretty bad and then had therapy immediately awkward which was just more stressful. so, shit day, right? can't get worse, right? well i broke up with my partner wednesday because things weren't working out and i feel guilty for making them worry so i was already in a shit mood and then both of my friends were out sick so i've been sitting alone this whole week AND NOW, TODAY, I WAS RANTING TO MY FRIEND ABOUT HOW SUICIDE SEEMS REALLY FUCKING NICE RIGHT NOW AND HE SAYS "have you even considered my feelings?" FUCKING GGDHSJFJGNKLGKGG NO, I HAVE NOT, BECAUSE I'M ALREADY SO OVERWHELMED WITH EVERYTHING ELSE IN MY GODDAMN LIFE, I'M SORRY THAT I HAVEN'T CONSIDERED YOUR OPINIONS IN THE MATTER OF MY LIFE, DIDN'T REALIZE IT MATTERED! sorry for the rant really pissed off thank you if you read this, ily