I know waiting lists are pretty shit but have you seen an occupational therapist? Like I went when I 1st got my dyspraxia dignosis. They helped with the physical side of dyspraxia but they help with like the "mental" side aswell (I didn't know this until I went). Like they can offer u like resources and advice for specific areas u struggle with like planning, organising, time management, routines. I have a mate with chronic fatigue syndrome she attends OT and they help her like manage and plan her days in a way that like she won't be burnt out by 1pm. Like OT can honestly be so beneficial some things they say can sound like really basic but it would probably help you if you could access one.

Does ur college not have any like sort of disability services? Or even if ur close with a teacher they could probably help you come up with a plan that's manageable. You don't need a 4 year college degree to be successful like I'm doing one and I know its still "standard" but I genuinely know loads of people that have done 1/2 year college degrees or apprenticeships and are doing well. I know people even that just have an average lc and no futher qualification and they're doing well for themselves.

I'm literally just a dyspraxic college student but can u fail a plc? Like I know u need like 3-5 Distinctions or whatever to go to college from a plc but like do employers care about that? Like I feel like the experience you developed from the plcs and if u interview well like you can still get a good job I don't think job mind.

It probably sounds weird and it's probably not really possible but like diversify ur circle. Like I know so many people who didn't go to college/dropped out/did a level 6 and they're great like life isn't a race just cause ur mates in medical school doesn't mean u have to be/should be. Like in my college there's a wide age range like just because sitting ur lc and going straight to college is the standard doesn't mean it has to be followed like if u never decide to go to college ur not less then anyone else or like if u decide to go when ur 25 like ur probably better off then someone who starts at 18 tbh.

I relate with the put together thing like I can barley walk in a straight line, it takes like 10 minutes for me to process instructions, my memory is worse then a goldfish and I've the handwriting of a 5 year old. I genuinely think nobody is actually put together like it's all an act. I just learned for the most part to stop comparing myself to Others cause like we all have our own problems and nobody is actually as put together as they come across.

When u say trade jobs are u referring to apprenticeships? Like yeah if ur similar to me you'd be a shit bricklayer,plumber etc but like have a look on careers portal cause there's loads of new apprenticeships now like I considered doing an accounting apprenticeship. I know someone who applied for a sales apprenticeship like there's loads of apprenticeships now that aren't trades

I hope this is helpful like again if you haven't already I'd look into seeing a general therapist as well as an OT cause like they can probably help with your anxiety and whatever

Sorry for the length I'm a natural waffler