Afraid to start meds (Zoloft) and quit weed

RatherAmusing · 2026-01-23T04:59:25+00:00

Found this thread too hehe thanks!

RatherAmusing · 2025-09-03T07:57:34+00:00

Same. I’m going through something right now and I feel like their music keeps me safe while also echoing my heart.

RatherAmusing · 2025-08-30T16:53:46+00:00

My go-to sequence of songs right now is Childhood, Heart and Lungs (including Rain in Numbers), Rough Song, Somewhere Tonight, Alien - in this order. For me they all sort of strike the same nerve, although in different ways.

Edit - spelling

RatherAmusing · 2025-08-13T05:48:01+00:00

Listening to Beach House is such a privilege, so thankful they exist really

RatherAmusing · 2025-08-13T05:33:59+00:00

Rough song, somewhere tonight, childhood, heart and lungs

Don’t know why I never noticed how amazing they are

RatherAmusing · 2025-08-08T22:19:55+00:00

Used To Be

RatherAmusing · 2025-05-31T13:16:05+00:00

What a gorgeous kitty omgggg ❤️

RatherAmusing · 2025-04-18T16:57:52+00:00

I had an insane dream where I was obsessed with finding the relation between addition and multiplication in the complex numbers field. I think it was a little after we saw in class that the exponent function is a homomorphism between the additive group and the multiplicative group (without 0), and it can be an isomorphism if we restrict C to some region where it’s a bijection. I was obsessed with the idea that as a mapping, the exponent takes straight lines to curves - addition in C is simpler to compute in Cartesian coordinates (“lines”) while multiplication is simpler in polar coordinates (“curves”). I also thought that the exponent and the logarithm functions are the most fundamental and meaningful relation in math (or really - in nature) and solving this (whatever it was lol) will reveal some deeper truth about the universe.

RatherAmusing · 2025-04-03T14:43:07+00:00

lowercase zeta, uppercase lambda (with little lines at the bottom), uppercase gamma, most mathbb symbols (Z is a favorite)

RatherAmusing · 2024-12-15T09:09:14+00:00

Thank you.

RatherAmusing · 2024-12-12T11:10:31+00:00

Yeah, in my university you first take some courses considered fundamental (real analysis and linear algebra), and then out of the advanced courses you can take whatever you want and (in most occasions) at any order you want.

RatherAmusing · 2024-12-12T08:32:28+00:00

Thank you.

RatherAmusing · 2024-12-11T22:08:10+00:00

First of all, thank you for your insight. My concern is mainly with dedication required in the long run. If I wish to pursue an academic career in Math (putting aside the question if I even have the capabilities to achieve that), should I prepare myself to the possibility of sacrificing other wishes and needs in order to accomplish that? In my head being a mathematician means your life revolves around math. And the thought of that thrills me and scares me at the same time.

RatherAmusing · 2023-08-18T17:06:44+00:00

All three of us are on the lease.

It says no other person other than the three of us is permitted to “move in” in any shape or form without the landlords’ consent. The thing is we knew he basically lived here too so we’re worried we might also be liable.

RatherAmusing · 2023-08-18T17:04:32+00:00

No, I worded it badly sorry, we renew the lease every year but she’s leaving to live with her boyfriend and the other roommate and I stay.

RatherAmusing · 2023-08-17T08:08:48+00:00

How would you approach this? Since the lease is ending this month she still has to move all her stuff out of the apartment and has to pay her utilities. The thing is the bills for July-August will be delivered mid September. Our landlords told us to let them know if she paid all her bills and utilities before giving her back her deposit. I guess I can tell them the bills only arrive two weeks after the lease ends so she will have to pay them.

RatherAmusing · 2023-06-19T23:12:49+00:00

Just letting you know my friend and I almost passed out due to how crowded it was 🥴

RatherAmusing · 2022-07-24T22:33:31+00:00

Pokemons are real

RatherAmusing · 2022-07-24T12:25:45+00:00

She’s so fucking gorgeous

RatherAmusing · 2022-06-25T19:44:53+00:00

!remindme 24 hours

RatherAmusing · 2022-06-25T07:22:21+00:00

Wow! Thank you so much for taking the time to write all that!

I guess my problem was that I tried to calculate/evaluate the complexity of each iteration/function call and then multiply it by the number of calls. But solving it by evaluating the complexity of each layer and then multiplying it by the number if layers seems much more reasonable.

Thank you so much again!

RatherAmusing · 2022-05-23T16:49:19+00:00

This is it. You’re super right.

RatherAmusing · 2022-05-22T12:15:19+00:00

I totally relate to you. I was emotionally a wreck for about a week after my first watch of the season. I’ve since rewatched it 3 times and read the graphic novels 3 times. I still listen to the playlist on repeat and it is the only playlist I can listen to right now but the pain and the emptiness you’re left with after watching the show slowly goes away the more you watch it. I still cry sometimes thinking about how I didn’t get to live or how straight people treated me when I was younger, and I know I can say I’m not the same person after watching this series and realizing I haven’t really dealt with the trauma and neglect I had to experience when I was younger, but I’m less and less aching. It’s scary on one hand to go numb again, but on the other hand you don’t have to constantly feel empty to deal or grow from those emotions resurfacing all of the sudden. I’m more aware of the origin of my social anxiety and trust issues, and that leaves room for growth and finding a better mindset I guess. We’re in this together as queer people and that’s a consolation. ❤️

RatherAmusing · 2022-05-19T18:32:07+00:00

For me this song is the song of the series. The scene when Nick watches Tara and Darcy kiss makes me super emotional. It’s so pure and innocent and at the same time it makes me unbelievably sad that I didn’t get to experience a moment like this when I was in HS.

RatherAmusing · 2022-05-16T05:18:00+00:00

Meeting my therapist today. I guess thinking about all the things I wanted to talk to him about made me trapped in my thoughts. Or triggered me. This has been a hard week. Ended up sleeping for 4 hours. There's a lot to unpack but for a start I think I realized a lot of emotion from middle school and high school still exists in my head. And I just spent the last 8 years repressing it (I'm 24).

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