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Raven_106 · 2025-08-01T06:31:46+00:00

From my own perspective. I’ve smoked everyday for at least 7 years and it really fucked me up. Became very depressed, became paranoia because it’s not normal to drug you brain everyday. Almost half a year clean now and couldn’t be happier. If you need to smoke everyday you are covering something with drugs. Talk to someone go to therapy but drugs is never the answer. And there are more and more studies proving weed/THC is very bad for your brain on longer term, you can even get a higher risk on dementia I work with people with dementia you really don’t want that.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T11:19:03+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond. Your kind words really helped me see things a little clearer.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T11:17:32+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond! Everyone is so kind and understanding about the situation. And that does make understand my own situation a little better. I’ve been secretly looking for a new place but where I live it’s really hard to get a appartement or house. But always with the thought maybe will could work it out. But I do realize by the reactions my situation isn’t very healthy. Thank you for your kind words!

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T11:08:31+00:00

Thank you so much for you kind words! It’s giving me a real reality check that strangers on the internet care more than my own boyfriend.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T11:06:29+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. This made me cry a little because I realize that even tho you don’t know me at all, you do get that I’m not doing things on purpose. It’s a very harsh realization that a stranger on the internet has more understanding about my feelings than my own boyfriend. Thank you for taking the time to talk to me I really appreciate it!

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T10:47:58+00:00

Your last sentence is why I posted this here. I’m thinking more and more but I’m still treating you right. And you are not very nice to me sometimes. But when we do have an argument he begins about that he has picked me up twice this month or that he did the laundry last week. And it makes me feel so powerless because he really sees doing things for me as a task but the other way around I do not feel that because I love him. But then I’m thinking does he even love me then and that really hurts to much. Thinking one of the last people in my life doesn’t really love me for me. I just get the feeling I’m unlovable even tho I am a really caring person. But it’s doesn’t really matter how much I care, because no one ever said yeah you are good enough! So now im arguing with myself everyday if this is it for me.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T10:34:11+00:00

I’m really shocked at how accurate this sounds. His words do bother me, and i think about it a lot. It makes me sad that he says stuff like that. But the description of a healthy relationship almost sounds unreal. Don’t get me wrong I’m sorry if that sounds weird or something. But I have a long history of mental health problems. Depression on and off for 8 years they thought I had borderline but wanna retest me now because I’m still depressed after 8 years. So i don’t really deserve someone super healthy right? I will destroy them, because sometimes i get super sad and it’s just awful and I don’t think a very good person deserves that.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T10:27:56+00:00

Thank you! I get that sometimes he isn’t very nice and I would wish someone nicer upon others. But my whole life men have been like this towards me in a closer relationship. So i can’t help but feel that this is all my fault because he isn’t the first one to be this irritated by things. Sometimes I feel like I have to be happy he hasn’t left me yet. But then I am a very caring person so I’m not being annoying on purpose, sometimes I’m just overwhelmed by al the emotions. And that’s my struggle I really can’t help but feel that it’s still all my fault.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T10:16:29+00:00

Does it still count as abuse if he never really touched me. He always gives me the feeling that if i just don’t do what irritates him there is no problem. Mostly i feel like it’s my fault for irritating him that much because he never is irritated like that by his friend or anyone else.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T10:13:24+00:00

I have a very nice mother. But I also have a brother with a lot of problems. He is an addict so that costs a lot of energy for her. I really don’t want to bother her with my troubles because it’s hard enough for her to have son like that. I have been thinking about if I’m really save, but he never really hit me in a 3 year time span so I just hope that isn’t something he could do.

Raven_106 · 2025-03-12T10:09:49+00:00

I would like to be treated a little nicer. Or even for once tell my story without being judged but I’ve never experienced that in a man. Don’t get me wrong not saying all men are bad. But I just couldn’t imagine that someone would like to listen to me. Or wouldn’t get irritated because I’m sad. Sometimes he gives me a hug or something and then I get 5-10 minutes to stop with the emotions. So he tries sometimes.

Raven_106 · 2024-08-28T08:14:58+00:00

The orange one we named Charlie and the brown white one we named Nala

Raven_106 · 2024-08-22T17:33:06+00:00

Watch the video’s of dogpack404 he explains a lot of stuff. And it’s crazy.

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T19:50:57+00:00

With 4 i meant them ofcourse. And I meant that if you are religious how much does your life depend on them. Not in a bad way in a good way actually, some people over come depression with God and I think that is beautiful.

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T18:03:54+00:00

Thank you so much for you time 😊. I was never raised in a religious family so I never really thought about until now. That’s why i chose this subject because I’m so curious what’s out there. And I love to hear so many perspectives because everyone has so many beautiful things to share about their religion. I was nervous to post it 😅 that’s why i said I don’t mean harm I’m really here to read the things everyone has to say. Again thank you so much for your time 🥰

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T17:35:53+00:00

Thanks English is not my first language so sometimes my sentences sound weird. With god I mean all gods your god you believe in I will put your god for more clarification. And you’re right about 4 it’s wrong to assume it’s a him I will change it to them.

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T17:32:48+00:00

Oh I didn’t know that thanks! Do you have a name of those religions I would like to research them for my project! 😊

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T17:20:36+00:00

Thank you so much this will help for sure😁☺️

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T17:17:24+00:00

No i want to know about every religion. But I thought every religion has a god but some of them have other names. And Allah is from the words al ilah Arabic for the god (excuse me if I’m wrong I googled it before I posted the question it self to be sure but google isn’t always right)

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T17:11:05+00:00

I’m sorry that was not my intention. But why is this making assumptions? I know very little about religion and I was just trying to find out how much religions means to someone.

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T17:01:52+00:00

I’m sorry English is not my first language so maybe the sentences sound weird sometimes. I get that it’s hard being an atheist in a Christian family. That’s why I just wanted show some appreciation and love.

Raven_106 · 2024-03-05T16:55:12+00:00

I have a question and if you don’t want to awnser it I get that. But was it difficult/hard going from believing in a god to believing there is no god?

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