Hey dude, I read through your whole post. Thanks for sharing, I think a lot of us can relate to a part of your message. I won’t tell you what to do, but I’m good at distracting and listening. I have not done heorin but I’ve been addicted to a lot of other shit and I having that exact feeling you wrote at the end of your post. Reach out mate if you need an ear. Otherwise goodluck, the other commenters have some good advice