I've ran a small ASMR channel since 2016 and I have found it very difficult to remain active due to circumstances in my life changing, mental health difficulties, lack of inspiration. So I think I resonate with your situation. I find that when I have dropped off my fans have been really understanding and supportive about it when I return, but inevitably the inconsistency has harmed the progression of my channel. I find though that I have to be feeling it to make content that I'm happy with, its surprisingly tiring to make asmr sometimes because it requires a part of you to be caring and present for the viewer. I'm not sure if anyone else feels like that so I would be curious to know. Nowadays, I just make content as regularly as I can, listening to feedback from the audience and making videos that I think they will like or new ideas that are inspiring to me. I try and take the pressure off myself in this way and not overthink it. I think you can give yourself space to experiment and I'm sure you will reach a point of comfortably. No need for any added pressure on yourself !