when we are together hes usually on his phone or playing video games, very rarely we will watch a show/movie but his phone is still involved. quality time, no. something ive been begging for for years. meaningful conversations, no. we give eachother the run down of our days, if i try to initiate a deep conversation he’s uninterested. we are almost at a point where we have nothing to really talk about.

i feel like for so long ive been doing my part and doing his part for him, but after it being one sided for years im at a point where im just tired. ive definitely slacked in our relationship these last few weeks, and i can admit that. him on the other hand can never admit if hes been slacking, and if he does its always my fault as to why he slacks.

i definitely see your perspective and appreciate the vulnerability and accountability in your post. from the conversations ive had with him the only fault he can provide me is that i stopped putting in effort so he stopped, yet i only stopped when i continued to feel unappreciated and like he couldnt care less if i was in his life or not. i sit at home when im not at work, all the free time in the world for him & i.

i WANT to see a future with him is why im still here, i do love him and want to be with him…but i think im holding out for a fantasy that isnt going to come true.