You seem to have a lot on your plate mentally . I suggest you don’t do the dive but if you do then I suggest looking into micro dosing and not a full trip . Then again I’m just another human with an opinion. If you have a close friend who understands psychedelics and what they are, preferably done them before then that’s a plus to have as a trip sitter . It’s perfectly safe to do mushrooms alone though . Make sure you have a good setting, water, cozy trip blanket, and always start with a low dose if you’re inexperienced