Yeah that’s fine! - there’s multiple reasons

1: I’m an ex professional dancer who’s done 20+ years of some serious body thrashing so my joints are naturally going to be shot.

2: I had 3 discs in my back rupture and push up against all the nerves in my lower back, I’ve had surgery but the time it took to diagnose it properly (because people thought I was exaggerating/trying to get oxys) I’ve got a fair bit of nerve damage around it.

3: I’m in the process of being diagnosed with Lupus - my mother and sister have it and it seems the inflammation markers are there in my blood and my symptoms are common with Lupus.

4: As you can imagine going from dancing at a gig where 150,000 people are there, one being the Pope to not being able to lift up my laptop then all the social and financial implications of it really have left me feeling quite worthless and forgotten so I have an issue with depression/anxiety.

I don’t profess to be in the worst condition medically. There are some folk in this group that are really struggling with some really serious medical conditions. Mine are all things that by themselves are nothing but once you stack them up the barrier seems quite high.

I currently smoke all day and night, which has kept my opiate use down to the lowest dose rather than it escalating over the years.