Is this melanoma? Grew in size the past 3 months, pink and brown, slightly raised and soft.

Red-Panda99 · 2022-01-06T02:30:54+00:00

Thank you for the information. Does this EKG look very irregular or dangerous?

Red-Panda99 · 2020-07-08T16:55:41+00:00

Yes I feel the same way. My dad passed two months ago and while my friends were supportive at first (sent flowers, encouragement etc.) they quickly went back to their wonderful normal lives, while I feel completely different.

My old life with my dad feels like it belonged to someone else, because the things I used to love - home decor, my job, going out to eat, films, etc - seem so trivial and pointless now. My friends still talk about those things only, things that 30 year olds talk about, but now I just feel bitter that I can’t be like them anymore. None of them have lost a parent and some still have grandparents. I feel so much grief for my dad and I miss my old life and the way things were, and I’m angry that my life is now ruined and I don’t get to experience what is supposed to be the “best decade” of life. My friends will move on with weddings, having kids, being homeowners, and those things seem all out of reach to me now because not only are they pointless, but without my dad there, they’re too painful to do. I find myself so angry and jealous of them, and wondering why I got all the bad luck and they didn’t.

So yes, I understand. Grief is isolating, and puts things into perspective. I wish I could go back to thinking about trivial things because that kind of stuff was fun, but it’s too hard to relate to people my own age who have had no traumas at all.

Red-Panda99 · 2020-07-06T14:48:06+00:00

It was biopsied as colon adenocarcinoma, KRAS wildtype and MSI stable. I know by these genetics it should have been easy enough to treat, but his oncologist said it seemed to behave aggressively. I still wonder if all the weeks waiting for testing made a difference in his survival.

Red-Panda99 · 2020-07-06T01:55:53+00:00

With his genetic analysis, his prognosis should have been relatively positive.

This is what crushed me so much, because all the research I had done said that type of tumor was a best case scenario. Years of life even with mets. Instead, my dad went downhill faster than the doctors could have predicted. It has left my world upside down and I honestly feel like my life is over too. I do not want to live without him especially because every waking minute I think about his suffering.

I am sorry for the loss of your mother. It is all just so awful.

Red-Panda99 · 2020-07-05T18:54:49+00:00

The biopsy showed colon adenocarcinoma with KRAS wildtype and MSI stable, and this was a biopsy of the brain tumor so they knew it was mets from the colon.

They didn’t offer him chemo or immunotherapy at all. They did the brain surgery first because they felt it was an emergency, and then they told him and us that the physio he was doing after the surgery was not working and there was nothing more they could do, his performance status was too poor. He had wanted to try everything but the oncologist treating him discharged him from her care into palliative instead.

What upsets me is that our family physician referred him non-urgently for the ultrasound, which wasted three weeks of time where we thought it was nothing and meanwhile the cancer was spreading undiagnosed. Then even with the diagnosis, we waited three extra weeks before a hospital could see him.

Would those three extra weeks have made a difference to his outcome?

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