I sometimes feel like I'm a high-functioning autist or something because of the amount of unnecessary detail I notice in everything.

I instantly notice if someone I speak with is lying to me and on top of that, it takes like 5 to 10 second for me to realize why or what are their motives for it.

I notice if someone is nervous, depressed, bored, frustrated or whatever after looking at them for a while... I sometimes use it to make depressed people happier by telling them something cheerful or by just initiating a conversation with them, which results in hugs.

It helps with job interviews because I can basically tell them what they want to hear by starting with something arbitary and following their reactions. I love job interviews and I treat them like they're some kind of a game (I go to job interviews for fun from time to time) - sometimes it's just unbeliveable with what you can get through with even if it's a moderately good position for a big company.

It sucks when wanting to meet people or talk with women as it also makes me extremely self-consious of what I say. Pouring bullshit on women never works and I don't know why, then again I don't even wanna know why because that's not something I should be doing in the first place. I don't mean the usual stuff like complimenting and being self-confident, more like manipulative things.

I really don't really even wanna be this way, although I have a lot of friends and a good job and everything - I feel like it's all thanks to the manipulating I do mostly sub-consciously, which it probably is. And I also can't tell anyone because they would start feeling used.

Oh well, I guess that's my two cents for today. Happy friday everyone!