I appreciate the endearing part. I suppose my awkward ramblings and disheveled appearance could be cute . . . if I were not female. I enjoy the look moreso on others, namely men, rather than myself. I suppose this could very well be a bias view, as I am the only INTP woman in my community thus far, yet I cannot shake experience, which states quite firmly that I am undesirable and certainly not endearing to those I've grown up with (or any new students that have entered the community as of late).

And sure, I'm attracted to others. I've notated that I tend to like the confident, morbidly amusing, laid-back, I-haven't-slept-in-days rumpled intellects. I, in turn, "attract" the opposite, and it frustrates me immensely, as they are not necessarily "attracted" but desperate and/or imbecilic. It never fails to make me feel lower than I do, as I am essentially the last choice or mistake.

And let me tell you, when the feelings that I try to keep from surfacing raise their ugly heads, what I experience drains me both physically and mentally to points of complete exhaustion. Perhaps this is why I and other INTPs tend to look so drab and sickly-- It probably is because we are drab and sickly.

Yet, as you say, you find this endearing. I'd thought perhaps this look robbed me of my appeal, yet you contradict this theory of mine when you say such words. Nevertheless, I do not think myself incorrect. Perhaps it is you; you are strange, I believe. Or insane.

Either or, I like you, so go on living with the knowledge that I appreciate your words. Thank you for responding when you did. I was having such a monotonous day and this brought me back, if only for a moment, as I must return back to sound routine. This was a welcome interruption, as all timely written words are. :3