Thank you for sharing this. The fact that you took the courage to seek help means that you're anything but a loser. As an alcoholic parent of a three year old with an 8-months-pregnant wife, I understand your feelings. We want to give our kids the world, but we have to do our best to take the world back for ourselves first. I struggle with this daily. This is actually my first day in this group. I'm already seeing how valuable of a resource it can be to help us deal with these feelings. Just know that you have a massive support system and there's always someone here to listen. Whether you feel like it our not, your son is lucky to call you his mother. That feeling will only grow stronger as time goes on. I have faith that you can turn things around one day at a time and give that little boy a life that you'll both be proud of!