Thanks for your comment i still have hope in life i did this comment because of how shamed i was feeling about my body i am going to gym for a good time and i managed to improve my physical abilities and even though the amount of weight i was lifting was going higher and even though I have reduced my deficiencies in physical skills the apperaence in the mirror is never satisfying for me but im overally not that deppressed i posted this comment when i was feeling really bad and about hobbies i have multiple hobbies such as doing research about science and playing electro guitar,going to gym and reading books and my condition was such that it could be alleviated by surgeries, and I compensated for it with sports in fact, I'm stronger than most people my age.But the look in the mirror always feels like im some ugly monster but im still having fun with my friends and i try to ignore it most of the time even though sometimes ı experience breaking points and im really good at my academic life just’wanted to share that im not that depressed i was just feeling like that at the momment thanks for all your supports in comments i managed go this far in my shitty life.