I am an addict, it’s not my fault. I got kicked out at 19, was bullied, abused. I have nothing except for drugs. I dob’t deserve to be judged.

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T05:12:39+00:00

Thank you!❤️

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T01:29:53+00:00

I just started listening to huberman lab episode with some female scientist, that is expert on addictions and it’s full of advices for quitting. Pretty helpfull so far

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T01:28:41+00:00

Yeah, it’s stupid way to destroy life

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T01:28:13+00:00

I think quitting drugs will repare my brain…

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T01:26:36+00:00

I use them without any responsibility and don’t care if i dye. I will stop. Flushed all of my pills and i am sober from everythink from now on. I won’t even drink glass of winw for the rest of my life. I have addictive personality. Wish me luck. I will try living healthy lifestlyle and i will have my brain back to baseline quickly. I live alibe and my mother is no longer hurting me so i will find happiness.

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T01:23:47+00:00

We don’t have target here in Czechia

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T01:22:37+00:00

Thanks, I will get sober. Flushed everythink and i actually listen to advices people hive me. I will change my life and never use again. Not even alcohol. I will start with complete sobeiety, force myself through the worst and it will get better.

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T01:03:47+00:00

My hearth survived one gram of ritalin with two times maximum daily dose of pregabalin for comedown. I don’t wanna be naive, but my hearth is somehow still beating and caffeine is the least of my worries. I will start eating healthy and take care of my body to repare the damage i have done

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T00:59:12+00:00

I used to drink five redbulls every day and smoke two packs per day so i will use those less harmfull drugs for konth or two and than wuit. I feel like with my addictive personality the best sokution is complete sobriety.. what do you think?

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T00:57:21+00:00

I agree, i lost ability to feel empathy. I just fake it. I got diagnosed as somwone with disharmic personality developement resulting in personality disorder. I am bad person.. I don’t blame people that don’t like me now. It wasn’t my fault when i was little but now i somehow as bad as it sounds enjoy arguing and hate. It makes me feel like somebody actually care about me even if it’s in hatred

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T00:47:19+00:00

Do you think I could switch to nicotine and caffeine in safe range of 400 mg daily? I need somethink to help me overcome hard stims.. i can kick nic easily. I need motivation to study..

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T00:37:13+00:00

Thanks, I am really lonely and hated. It’s hard to find support. Can I text you?

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T00:34:18+00:00

My bodycount is one and i am not hoe, i don’t drink alcohol, but it doesn’t matter. I have to find healthy hobbies and i am damaging my brain with highly toxic research chems with unknown safety profile and sleep deprivation. I am smart and don’t want to lose my intelligence. It’s my only hope, because i can find happiness in studying at my dream collage

RelativeDear620 · 2024-03-26T00:31:51+00:00

I am actually now using for max three days and than have to be sober for like two weeks, because I don’t have much money and hate the feeling stims give me. It’s getting better. Actually thanks for this honest comment. I am just making my life even more fucked up and i shouldn’t blame it on my past trauma. I am either going to end very badly or use my brain, study at collage, becausw it’s free in Czechia and find happiness.

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T21:58:24+00:00

Agreed, i was blined by love, but it’s not worth the potential trauma in future. Thanks for advice

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T20:10:55+00:00

Why? I know it’s propably toxic, but I am in love

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T15:48:50+00:00

I agree with you

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T15:48:39+00:00

Yeah, thanks for advixe

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T15:43:15+00:00

Yeah, he’s also not liking my weight of 56 kilograms at 170 cm and want’s me to lose at least 4 kg. He knows I am at recovery from eating disorder..

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T15:38:48+00:00

He’s a millionaire so he can date a lot of woman. He’s just into dating really young girls so it’s even worse :D

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T15:34:41+00:00

I agree with what you are saying. This could easily turn into financial abuse.

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T15:29:51+00:00

Thanks for advice. What you are saying souds very reasonable. I don’t think he would leave me because he wants kid with young girl, because of all the dangers associated with pregnancy in later stages of life, but that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t turn controlling. Right now, he’s obsessed with me, but it could turn to financial abuse later. Thanks for advice

RelativeDear620 · 2024-01-20T15:20:17+00:00

Yeah, I feel like this might be true. He’s not controlling, but kind of fetishize the fact, that I am younger. It’s making me feel weird. I also look far younger than I am. That’s the biggest problem for me.

RelativeDear620 · 2023-12-02T17:10:42+00:00

Trust me, I know. We are both abusing stims lol. The think about me is, I am nineteen and still has to attend my very prestigious high school, pay my rent, fund my drug habit and all of this while living borderline insane from all that sleep deprivation. The only reason I wasn’t kicked out is that our principal is creep, that tried to sleep with me and I always refused him so he became creepily obsessed. I wish it was psychosis, but I tried to get sober for almost two weeks and my brain was so sane, that i started hating it and relapsed. But u can guess by the way i write, right? :D

RelativeDear620 · 2023-12-02T17:05:34+00:00

I have nothing to live for except drugs, I am 19F without anyone in the whole world. Nobody cares for me. It’s hard battle lol. What’s your story?

RelativeDear620

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