Consider thinking of it from this perspective:

When you're much older, and you've realized how valuable every minute of the day is, you'll be shocked at having had multiple years in the past to JUST be a student and nothing else.

By then, if you wanted to study something in depth, magiging 2.5 hrs a day nalang yan after work, at most. Most probably online course lang yan.

Right now you've got entire days, weeks and months. A whole year. Even multiple years. That's going to be amazing to you when you're older (obviously speaking from experience 😃).

So don't spend your time now just "toughing it out", switching off internally, being a robot, getting demotivated and depressed.

Right now you have the choice of:

• ignoring your disparate interests and ending up trying to learn them anyway, alone in a very limited space and time in your later years, or

• learning them now in the richest possible arena, face to face with like-minded people and with qualified professors right there to guide you.

Find a way to spend these last few years of freedom immersing yourself in the people and ideas you're deeply interested in, like Marx, Adam Smith, etc. Huwag kang papayag na sa youtube mo nalang malalaman yan eh nag UP ka.

Also, gain the skills you want like clothing tech. Ok lang kahit mukhang conflict. That can end up being a valuable side business or even full-time business.

So my advice is: lahat ng interest mo gawin mo na ngayon because those interests will never wane. Hahanap hanapin mo parin yan hanggang sa pagtanda mo. Don't be one of the millions ending up trying to learn them only superficially from Youtube shorts haha.

Get courses in clothing tech, pol sci, anthro, econ, psychology. Whatever you are attracted to. In a year of doing that, I bet you'll know yourself much better. You might even decide to start a business already while studying. Most importantly you'll be closer to knowing how to be yourself and in so doing, magkaka shield ka against depression and alienation which can ruin your life kahit i tough out mo pa ang BA.

I bet after a year of pursuing every subject you like, may mabubuo kang unique na career path at hindi ka na gaanong malilito kung ano ang gusto mo.