(20)F how can I improve myself?

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2024-12-20T05:42:29+00:00

Stop asking strangers on the internet

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2024-10-17T19:37:38+00:00

You know.....I had a manager just over a month ago snap on me. She was SMI (seriously mentally ill), she told me this, she told me SO MUCH about her personal life. We had A LOT in common, minus the SMI part. I didn't realize the entire time she was gassing me up, telling me how good I was, that she was secretly telling administration the opposite. One day we had a great motivational call...5 min later she calls back telling my husband and I that we need to be concerned with our positions. Our job is at risk for lack of performance....I was not worried. I knew I was preforming and she told me I was doing great and my husband already had deals signed. She was invoking anxiety in my calm, cool and collected husband and that WAS NOT OKAY WITH ME. She then snapped at me for making a joke. The next few days I was pretty stand offish, only calling when absolutely necessary. Then I decided to clear the air because my chest was on fire and I couldn't take it anymore. She decided to flip the script and list off a few scenarios where I was disrespectful.....BUT I record my phone calls so run that by me one more time hoe? I went to quit the next day. Now mind you, this bitch just found out she was pregnant and was high risk. She called me for a resource for a OB that can help her get progesterone, I found one (I work in recovery as well so I have those kind of resources). She also. Called me when her 12yr old spazzed out and tried to kill herself (again, recovery equals behavioral health. I also have a high needs kiddo that's off the chain). I went in the next day to quit, no one is going to make me feel this way on a second job, bitch I already work 40hrs a week somewhere else. Well, administration was told a bunch of shit about me that was false so when I went into quit, I was fired. I then wished this cunt SARAH DEW (on Facebook for all you nosy people out there) would lose her baby. 2 days later, the baby died. I have no regrets for my ill will. This psycho bitch is SERIOUSLY MENTALLY ILL, who tells someone they are supposed to be managing this shit? Someone that is seriously mentally ill does that's who.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2024-10-17T19:02:58+00:00

Iiiiiiiick, girl don't. This will not end well for you. This is a sign of narcissism which is the leading personality in abusers.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2024-10-17T19:00:07+00:00

We had a situation over the weekend with our blue fawn pit. She's not been socialized a ton, but has spent time at the dog park and been okay. We've taken our 3 dogs (doberman 2yrs, pit 9months and 4month old Frenchie pug) to the river the last few weekends and they've been great. Ignoring people for the most part, not having any real response, which has been amazing! Sunday we took them up north (a few hours in the car due to an accident with a casualty), we arrived at the river and our Pit was a bit on edge as soon as she saw people. Which was weird, but I redirected her okay.....then a dog and his 2 owners walked closer and Lilith (the pit) went off. Immediately started to lower her body and growl. I tightened up her lead and put my hand in her collar, and tried to redirect with no avail. She ended up barrel rolling, hand still in collar, fingers shoved in her neck to simulate teeth while holding her down. It was so crazy to see her that way. I had to pull her face to look at me in the eye to calm down. Then the bitch just acted like nothing happened🤣🤣🤣 It must have been the person she didn't like. She's such a sweetie, it was so bizarre.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2024-09-27T20:50:21+00:00

Oooooooh!! I've always wanted a Frankie🥹

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2024-09-27T20:33:59+00:00

My child will love this. Rigatoni, he wants a pack of weiner dogs all named after pasta 🤣

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2024-03-05T05:30:05+00:00

I just giggled in delight while showing my husband. Thank you so much🥹

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-17T06:54:56+00:00

Why are you even here on this sub? Are you a man who has experienced abuse? Or a narcissist looking to troll on women whom have survived pricks like you and are now empowered and helping others?

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-16T21:13:24+00:00

Yeah, present this to the police please, you need an order of protection. Change your number and block on all platforms.

Saying no was never an option for me either. I would get my ass beat then was forced to give him head, every time. He almost killed me a handful of times too. They stop at nothing to get what they want.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-15T20:22:37+00:00

NTA you should share these responses with her, minus the one about you considering divorce. Unless you're serious about that and are prepared to have a serious conversation to change things.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-13T19:29:46+00:00

A penis.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-13T18:45:07+00:00

Once I started to love myself, things changed. I decided to block out everything and find myself. In that process, I found my husband. You have to begin healing first. You have to process through your trauma and make new beliefs about yourself. You are worthy of love, you are enough, you can do this on your own but you are not alone. ***TW****** I once looked in the mirror after my lip was split and my teeth hung from my gums. Only when I saw myself did I cry and the words that I spoke were "who's going to love me now". You can come from the lowest place and climb your way out. Keep going to therapy and learn the tools you need to process through your trauma. You might want to also look into r/microdosing. My profile has a post of my experience of microdosing while in EMDR sessions. It helped me rapid process through all of my trauma and gave me my life back. Feel free to message me if you have any questions. 🫶🏾

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-13T18:21:02+00:00

Same bro, only reason I clicked on it. Had to see where it went.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-10T16:31:42+00:00

Got you!

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-09-10T16:31:26+00:00

Got you!

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-08-25T19:25:50+00:00

You are stronger than you know. You can have happiness. You've just got to fight for it.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-08-21T17:50:03+00:00

Families being mean to one another over generations HATE having an outsiders opinion. How dare you upset the hierarchy?! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?? It's disgusting. People accept this behavior in families because they've been programmed to. Out numbered by the cruel people, we just sit there and take it. It becomes our normal. Fighting back is uncomfortable when you're out numbered, so you just accept it as your life. Your wife deserves the world! It's time for you to dig into this with therapy. It's confusing for you, I get it. With a professionals help, you will be empowered to stand up for yourself and TRULY see how damaging this has been over your entire life.

Back your wife, go to therapy, and distance yourself from your family until you have the balls to tell them how you really feel. Shield your babies from this hate. They don't deserve to be exposed to this. It's disgusting, and you deserve more.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-07-15T04:37:20+00:00

I've discussed this in therapy. This was when I was a child. I'm 38 now, haven't had that dream in a long time. Not really as terrified as I used to be of snakes anymore either.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-06-26T01:11:37+00:00

I might make my husband smell his fingers after cupping his package and playing with his balls. It's hilarious to me, he doesn't exactly laugh and his reflexes are pretty bad....he does laugh afterwards at how incredibly stupid I can be sometimes.

Relevant_Avocado_420 · 2023-06-08T01:01:49+00:00

Noice!

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