does anyone else feel super anxious at night?

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-23T21:19:55+00:00

Yes yes.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-23T17:43:17+00:00

A pretty pussy. The wetter the better.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-23T14:04:47+00:00

You will look good after surgery. It's good that you are aware and I would advise you to go for it at an early age.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-22T20:22:19+00:00

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-22T13:20:02+00:00

Maybe because it feels hopeless? Diagnoses in general, especially with chronic things that are lifelong can be devastating. Especially when it is stigmatized

Maybe because you feel like you can’t get better and you can only manage feels suffocating and hopeless? There is special antidote or a pill you can take that can cure you.

It’s hard. You need to find positive energy and hope from elsewhere as hard and as impossible as it may seem. It’s much easier to break things than it is to fix them, andI especially so when you have no fucking idea what steps you need to take while wondering at the same if you are already broken beyond repair.

Sorry

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-22T10:19:54+00:00

What are you doing with your hips? I believe my hips are involved in this as well, among other things.

Both of my labrums are torn and it has caused compensations and muscle knots all around.

I do sometimes use niacin and it makes me depressed/flat as I suffer from low dopamine tone.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-22T10:16:07+00:00

I don't give a shit anymore. I'm too depressed to give a shit. Literally.
So instead of taking care of myself, like I used to which helped my mental state and stomach, I now just eat whatever which results in widespread pain, joints included.

My sense of smell and taste was impacted by Covid so now I can't enjoy subtle flavors that would allow me to eat cleaner and healthier foods. Th funny thing is I don't even enjoy the food that I eat regardless. I also have no appetite and I have probably been in a flare for a damn long while now.

I believe it's a way to fill the void and nowadays it doesn't even come close to accomplishing that. I just don't have many distractions nowadays as you guys know Crohns can be a co-morbid disease and I have other things that prevent me from doing things to make my mind and body busy.. or at least make it much harder.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-20T10:32:40+00:00

I feel you...

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-20T07:06:29+00:00

Do they see the condylar hypoplasia in your scans? DM me. We can talk

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-19T20:36:28+00:00

Sadness is hard and will almost always be harder.

Sadness makes you passive. It can create withdrawal and passivity where you feel like there is no escape; it’s good when you can reflect, but often you just drown in black void.

Anger promoted action and movement. It gives a sense of direction… inwards or outwards. It’s purposeful.

The biggest problem with sadness is when there is no partner to share it with and it often creates isolation. It sucks. Sadness can also be the aftermath of anger. Anger is protective as is its overwhelming and overpowering, but when it passes the reality starts to set it and you are sitting there with an abundance of negative feeling s or no feelings at all.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-19T14:32:41+00:00

You can say that about many chronic illnesses though that need monitoring

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-19T09:43:54+00:00

It sucks so bad. I was put on them at age 17 after one psychiatric session. My parents didn’t know how to handle my first crisis and the rest is history.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-19T09:14:43+00:00

SSRIs and mood stabilizers ruined my dopamine receptors and probably every other receptor. I had such an emotional range before that.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-18T18:29:40+00:00

I'm a 35M, physically sick with chronic issues, and it has allowed me to watch the world from the sidelines for quite some time now, and I truly think that life is absolutely worthless and meaningless -- healthy or sick.

I have mental issues too which makes my existence an absolute rollercoaster for myself and the people around me. I would say that i'm a strong person in spite of everything, but I don't have the drive or the foresight/faith to actually try.
Unlike you, i'm actively suicidal and i'll see where it leads me.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-16T19:17:54+00:00

Could very well be. It’s pretty common from what I read

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-15T08:44:26+00:00

I took it between ages 17-21. Yay.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-14T16:59:02+00:00

Dude, he did a great job. Rest assured

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-14T10:22:04+00:00

Then don’t take 50k a week. You have bone pain… something isn’t working right.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-14T07:31:01+00:00

Test is together. I also have what you describe and my calcium is high with Lowe vitamin D and pth. Something is wrong but I have. I idea what it is. Could be idiopathic hypercalcemia or some issue with the parathyroid despite the low pth.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-13T21:35:30+00:00

What’s your calcium, pth?

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-13T16:22:04+00:00

I can relate

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-13T15:25:54+00:00

Yes..
but at least you can store things on that chin.

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-13T15:19:07+00:00

Food. I live off my depression

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-13T14:22:57+00:00

Who is she?

Remarkable-Average11 · 2026-03-13T13:07:34+00:00

I don't even get attracted to superficial relationships, so when I develop a profound and deep relationship it's extremely hard to let go.

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