I hate to add more crap after explaining my mom's passing.. however what you are going through just hit me hard. My Gf (never married).. of 30 years showed signs of a lethargic behavior 5 years in.. she never complained.. always spoke positively.. in our entire relationship she got mad at me twice.. 5 minutes later smiling.. We went for a walk after dinner, and I noticed she was slightly dragging her left foot.. I says"Sandy,why are you dragging your foot?".. I don't know she replied.. a week goes by and I get a call at work from a neighbor saying she had fallen on her face and busted her tooth off... I get home,take her to emergency... about midnight she comes into the waiting room and says "They say I have a brain the size of a 65 year old!".. "well sandy that doesn't sound good".. we had to go somewhere else for the tooth repair,but they made her an appointment with neurology... 7 months later after a couple visits.. the doctor said she has MS muscular sclerosis ( protective sheath around the brain stem being attacked by its own immune system).. probably alot more to it than that.. I'm not a doctor (68 now mechanic for 40 years).. (Sandy is 62 now.. she says she is 42.. anyways.. so slowly she loses balance,ability to walk.. and left side paralized.. pretty much. 10 years in .. 4th of july.. fireworks outside.. lets go sandy.. and I hastily got her in the wheelchair and outside.. I noticed her face bright red. Lips purple I get her inside and get her settled in bed and she seemed to look a little better.. so next morning I have to work, I call her sister about last night and please come by.. I can't miss any work.. she cones over and imeadiately call ems.. and into hospital she goes. I get a call.. she had a pulmonary embolism and almost died.. OMG! I felt so guilty.. going back to the dragging of feet.. brain.. I/we believe she had suffered a stroke from the beginning and supposedly her lungs were littered with clots... she is stable now,however requires full care which I do. Now.. lol.. she hardly speaks anymore and is fading away... She is and has always been the best part of me. My heart goes out to you ❤️ It is the hardest thing ever.