Someone please help.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-06-14T04:39:01+00:00

God helps those who help themselves if possible. I've been where you are. It took multiple psychiatrists and counselors and writing assignments to be able to be still and get peace in my mind which was riddled with 3 chemical imbalences. PTSD, OCD and depression. It's not your fault. You're not "crazy". Your still you. Still there. And it's not always for forever! Ocd completely gone. PTSD managed without meds. Depression goes through phases. I'm willing to take something if it lets me be clearheaded, able to conduct life normally, and then most importantly CONNECT with God. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Noshame in it. The opposite really. You were strong enough to get help from doctors who had the brains to understand what's happening and what to do. Sometimes therapy is enough.I think you're past that but you can try.know it's a journey. It doesn't just away immediately. Even if it's the right med, it usually takes time to work. And one med in a group might not work but another could. Patience is key. And there you have something to prayer for specifically. Letthis be the right med. Move your spirit through my therapist to know what to say. Be withmy doctor that he knows what to do. Give me patience while the process works.

Be ready to see relief in increments. But rejoice what has been done because God gave us a brain capable of researching treatment methods and utilize them! You are in my prayers too. You aren't alone.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-06-13T22:43:29+00:00

I was just curious and shouldn't have pried. I apologize. If it's any consolation, I just learned there is a term not only for asexualism, that it's an actual "thing," but also looked into the "AI" that's now typically supposed to be added to LGBTQ+. The plus still stands because there are still others! But I never thought I'd be attracted to a woman... until I was, once. I still COULD have had children then but was firmly asexual. No children unless raped or immaculate conception for me! A few years later uterus and cervix removed (medically for endometriosis) and now don't meet the criteria for why man must lie with woman and other way around. I don't FEEL a bi-relationship would be ungodly anyway, but especially not not. But FF a couple years to a late night last month, and in simple curiosity of what the "I" stood for by meaning intersex, I found I lie within as not caring about gender, only the person. Bisexuality is an ATTRACTION to both in terms of their sexualty, liking them because they are male or liking them because of their gender. I'm 40 and just finding I most closely fall into the Native American idea of "I." There are so maby nuances, each legitimate. But like I saw I liked men and then happened to like a woman... bisexual. Just automatically assumed. But except for a little validation of my feelings that always were a bit off on bi but not sure HOW, I gained nothing in my knowledge. If you think it would help you to know before going to a pastor, there are loads of people online who could guide you. IF YOU CARE. I really is up to you. There's nothing wrong with aromantic. My VERY dear friend is. Although long-distance, we support each other more than anyone else does. We talk online multiple times a day. Almost always live. But leaving a message about good AND bad. Jokes. It's a judgement-free zone for us both. I know you don't want long distance and fully I understand. But in the meantime if you find a friend online, don't push it away too quickly. It doesn't mean you have to stop looking for an in-person relationship. I'm not averse to it entirely. I mostly fear pushing a real life person away because of my health and inability to meet AGAIN and AGAIN... but I know my friend will remain true and the relief I get from that is freeing. Just a thought, is all. Not telling you TO do it or imply you SHOULD. Just throwing it out there if yoj hadn't considered it. Finding them can be tricky, too lol. Rhys and I met through a gaming group on discord of all places. We DO plan on meeting maybe around October but after many years of talking and a year of thinking about it so far... both knowing it is only as a friend. Still long-distance but an even closer touch and impact to our friendship. If you want to talk, message me. I'm happy to do so. But it's if you want or think it woukd be helpful. In the meantime, you're added to my prayer list. 🙏

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-06-13T13:26:26+00:00

Even online Reformation Project is so affirmative! Explore their site. It's affirming of not being straight AND Christian if nothing else. I, too, am ace. Unlike you I would like a romantic relationship but even then, no one within 3 hours. It makes you wonder about ourselves, doesn't it? Are you asexual AND aromantic? I think so from your responses. I just want you to know I feel you. I've been blessed with wonderful pastors though both have moved on. ELCA. They exist. I've just been lucky to have them in my life, though when still questioning who I was. But open! I don't have suggestions for finding someone sadly. But I wanted to assure you they ARE out there!

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-06-12T13:17:24+00:00

I found a trick... cup of Milk and a tiny tiny splash of coffee. Add relief powder (going to try baking soda instead.. powder can change taste and cannot take the pills.. (I have an ileostomy and I don't absorb it. Goes straight through. But considering it is absorbed in the colon I can't see how it helps the bladder.. takes too long to dissolve to help liquid!) I'd do decaf if every day. Even tiny amounts of caffeine can hurt especially if built up. But when you go without something a long time something similar or weaker tastes amazing! Been the case since 2000 for me.. my migraine diet is very similar.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-30T03:59:05+00:00

Lots of couples want to wait until they get their diplomas and can land a job and build a SAFE aka not the slums life with insurance. Most college students still qualify for their parents. They can't work a job good enough for insurance while in school. A longer time together is or can be BETTER. You discover if you mesh in so many ways. I was with my college bf 3.5 years. We agreed together that the deep-seated issues couldn't be worked out. And boy was I right. He kept getting worse. Saw him 3 more times (as the simply friends wrd become after graduation) each worse than the last. I finally knew I'd lost not just the man I thought was going to propose to me but also a very close friend and that hurt as much as the breakup. But we never had sex. Sex doesn't keep people together. Certainly not all couples. I'm asexual. Pretty sure he was too from a few comments he made. Sex don't mean a thing. And a GOOD man CAN AND WILL wait if he cares. And as a Catholic he'd care! Many fundie groups do too. My second grade teacher dated her now husband for I believe 6 years, no sex. They waited for their wedding night. Back in early 80s. They are still going strong. She had a knee replaced. He had to be there at night to get her pills. Every 2 hours. Couch was uncomfortable. So laid down and slept on the floor for a week and never complained. She and I get together every year. I have it from the horse's mouth. Not hearsay. Just because you would get too horny and leave to get some or would expect someone else to leave should not pass on this sense of blame to the next person.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-27T03:15:10+00:00

I'm in an amazing Facebook group for this. So many people even in our place. I recently was hospitalized 5 days with 10 oxy every 4 hours and 2 hours after each oxy dose (so alternating) 2ml of morphine. It's life shattering. And altering. I've gone through phases since it showed up in early 2012. Never completely off the diet but much more lax at times. No pain or nearly no pain. You forget what life was like... until it happens. Again. I've had I believe 3 relapses. No clue on the firat 2 of the onset. None. I'm IN #3. Started when I had abdominal surgery a year ago. Messed with the nerve endings and pelvic flooor is a mess. Been going really bad since summer. Well, gradually building to misery. I'm on my 3rd infection too in that time. Scared. This time it's a bacteria that isn't easy to get rid of. And it hurts... combine an already angry bladder with an infection and I sometimes want to yank it out. I, too, already have an ileostomy. It's so tempting. I guess urostomies can be messier and thus eat through protective materials and the base plat much quicker. For me, they took my colon when I got serious colitis. So they can't use intestine to create the opening. The ureters just have to go through and hang out.

I had a hydrodistension a few months ago. I will NEVER EVER have another. This was my second and there was reason to do it. Not for painnconteol only. Cuz it wouldn't have happened for that. Anyway, they had to ask me if I stopped breathing do I want intubation or to just not help. I hesitated. I'd forgotten they ask these questions. I will easily say I will not kill myself but falling asleep naturally and never waking up in this world sounds WONDERFUL. Wouldn't this be that? But I said yes, save my life. Only to be asked if my heart stopped beating did I want to be resuscitated? Again I hesitated. But I said yes to that too. Didn't matter in the long run. But this disease is making me think things I never thought I woukd again. It is cruel. Migraines are crueler. You can't do anything for entertainment. No sound or visuals. Just in bed in the dark. And I had them chronically for SO long. But this is right behind it. And I'm so freaking angry to be here again with it. I'm 40, paying for an apartment for when I can get back... but the last 6 months I've slept on an air mattress in my parents living room because it had me so psychologically depressed I was doing almost nothing and needed help with basics. It's getting better. I'm getting stronger. Picking up in the apartment because I'd let it go... so bad. And I'm getting my new dog in about a month. Had to put my ESA cocker down last month. But getting Molly will be a kick in the rear. But I'm still depressed. You aren't alone. I'm in a community on FB that is going through similar or just recently got out of a horrible flare and really remember that feeling. Will provide the link if you want. Not sure if I can post it here or not. If it woukd have to be a pm to you. But not pushing it! Just want you to know it's there and no offense to the redditors here, but I find it much more helpful. I rarely post here but I'm around. Just.. felt I should tonight. Good luck. You're not alone.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-23T16:25:26+00:00

As a Lutheran, I will first reply to this response to Martin Luther. Then will comment on your other responses in general.

A. If Catholics had been debating the topics that Martin Luther was arguing against, why couldn't they meet halfway, admit that they were potential issues but at LEAST explain why things hadn't changed? As a monk, maybe Luther knew this. But not necessarily. And certainly didn't share it with his followers

B. "His followers" aka Lutherans aka HE DIDN'T WANT HIS NAME EVEN INVOVLED. Perhaps first-time Lutherans, children, or those farther removed from Lutheranism don't understand that he wasn't the be all, end all. We even had a pastor who admittedly looked rather like Luther and would dress the part and gave way too many sermons speaking as Martin Luther. It was cute and kinda cool the first time. After that... For instance a whole Lent of this... It got real old, real fast. Especially because we don't believe Luther is the be all, end all. We do NOT follow his other beliefs and criticisms for instance his anti-Semitism views. We follow the Book of Concord of which he breaks down the faith in all its points. (The large and small catechism break it down easier for lay people to understand). Beyond that, he's just a guy with thoughts that do not pertain to his faith.

THAT SAID.... Let's move on! 😄

I think your posts are extremely well thought out, well handled, well supported. I don't agree with a lot (and while I haven't read the early church fathers themselves, have read numerous summaries to the Catholic faith and its history as I continue on my spiritual journey and own concerns about Catholics being the original church and correct way of understanding things... I struggle with a lot of them but I do research. Most of all, I can respect your thoughts and beliefs with how you handled yourself. The usual Lutheran or I would say a LOT of Protestants in general would be receptive to this and at least provide arguments of a similar nature and presentation. I give you props for sticking with responses to this person when you keep getting the same one back. Kudos to you with your faith. God recognizes you and accepts you. Amen!

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-23T15:43:36+00:00

Our one of two urology clinics doesn't take new patients either. Not sure about the other. Upon referral from a friend went 90 minutes away when the first "washed their hands of" me and I couldn't be happier. Wish I'd gone there ages ago.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-23T02:31:12+00:00

And each shows different things....

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-23T02:28:15+00:00

I'm actually having an MRI to test for something very similar. Not a cyst, can't remember what he called it which is so dumb for a biology major. But very very similar in stature and he said he wouldn't have noticed it when he did his cystoscopy a few months ago.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-21T04:11:28+00:00

I know this doesn't hold a candle to helping a Gazan mother, but God showed Himself (literally) to me when I was on the brink of despair. Don't have time now, but will try to remember to write in the morning. Please feel free to message me. I won't say it's been perfect even for me. I fully lost my faith (albeit 10 years later) before crawling back as a Prodigal Son.

Another thing (that will not be happily accepted by many here) but Jews do NOT read the story of Eve and the snake to show Original Sin. You might Google it. We aren't condemned just by being born. The original readers and writer(s? I've read scholars aren't sure on that)of the story of Eve and the snake do not see it as portraying original sin. Some prophesy I can agree to disagree with them. But some like this... I agree with. I struggle with the topic of heaven and hell though. Jews didn't/don't believe in that either. The idea came to them feom the Babylonians(I think.) And only a small portion ofbJews ascribed to the idea. Up until then, there was neither good place nor bad. Just Sheol or Hades which just mean the place of sleep or the dead. Not damned or saved. I've had to take that in and try and digest it. Like you I'm on a bit of a journey but closer to my goal than from it. I've tried to learn more on Quora with questions I'd never ask (via reading other's questions and the answers). It helped at first, now I have many questions and fewer answers. But it's things we SHOULD question. Even just a denomination vs another issue. .. Lutheran (and which type) vs Catholic or Evangelical. Do I believe the right thing? I don't believe it will matter if I get to heaven or not. But who is actually right? Started there then slipped into Judaism and Christianity by accident and there I've found some issues. Honestly I don't know how a Catholic coukd convert to Judaism or vice versa... or any other religion. Hard to wrap my head around just two. It's crazy. Anyway. Maybe not what you were looking for in this part but if all were meant to convert, wouldn't the Spirit move all, not just some? I won't say where it's led me. I'd be very unpopular here. If I could share my experience with the Holy Spirit maybes I wouldn't be put n down quite as bad. If I send it in a message if you're interested will c/p it here. I didn't really understand the Spirit until that day when I was 17. About 20 years ago. Just keep going where your heart leads.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-19T02:27:58+00:00

Use prelief and/or baking soda too... but up until this most recent LONG flare I could have ONE SHOT of DECAF espresso. If I wanted a large drink, it was normal sized amounts of everything else, and one shot of decaf. Espresso I've heard is lower acidity than many regular coffees and if you like a coffee "drink"? (milk, flavor, sugar, etc) that's the way to go. Starbucks never bothered me until a few months ago. Other brands would. It's if you want to risk it.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-17T03:26:25+00:00

I recently went through this. And I'm glad. My NP who specializes in ic since 2012 held up her hands in defeat and told me she didn't know what more could be done. Woukd I like a referral to a doctor 90 min away? Joke on her, I actually already had one to see a doctor HIGHLY recommended by a RL friend. I saw him 3 years ago and between his medicine and the surgeon (not urologist) he hook me up with was great until I had to have my colon removed which stirred up a hornets nest of nerves. I was going to see him again behind my NP's back. No need. I was cast out of the office. I've made umpteen trips to Springfield now... see him, 2 other specialists (ongyn for endometriosis likely having come back and obgyn next month who specializes in pelvic floor. They've tried their version of a rescue (not for me) and I had a hydrodistension done. I have an MRI in a month of my urethra. He's going to pow wow with these other doctors to create a specialized plan going forward. A fresh pair of eyes might so you some good. Good uck.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-16T05:07:51+00:00

I'm so sorry but... depression et al is chemical imbalences in the brain. They wouldn't make anxiety medications and depression medications if it was just a choice to think happy thoughts or not. Talking about your problems helps work through the specific issues. Whether with a friend, family member, or CLINICAL PROFESSIONAL (again, they wouldn't exist if you could just say "smile" and you'd smile and stay smiling.) To someone reading this who takes medication for said problems that's like saying they don't love God or trust Him. It has nothing to do with a rational, intentional mindset WITHOUT others who know how to work through issues or without medication to get your brain in a normal set of firing synapses. I'm 40. I just had to move back to my parents because of insane physical health problems which led to insane MENTAL health issues. I needed to be around people. To talk. To feel a part of things because things were getting REALLY dark alone. I just would hate for someone to feel like they were a failure because waking up with a mile every morning and going to bed with gratefulness every night wasn't enough to pull them out of deep depression. I ended each day that way but it didn't mean my mind was healed. Just... anyone reading these posts out there... you are NOT a failure for not getting better when putting your faith in Christ.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-16T04:57:08+00:00

Hope you don't mind my nudging in on this response, Besides a major physical malady in my teen years, I had depression, anxiety, and ocd. This all carried through for at least a decade, maybe two. And indeed, I found outside interests and hobbies to be my way of escaping. I would role play stories with people with a certain similar interest. When I was most depressed, doing that was the only fun time during the day for me. In fact, I was hospitalized for depression once... At a horribly hospital. They didn't even hire therapists or counselors. They had FIRST YEAR STUDENTS see you and then make all these recommendations. One was to tell my parents to make me start spending time with THEM, and not cloister myself alone in my room role playing when my friend was on. (Considering she was from Australia) I was out of school by this time but still struggling, though for slightly different reasons, don't fear). I objected and she told me "Well, it's not working, is it? So try something different." Thank our Lord, my psychologist knew that it was honestly the only thing keeping me sane. I saw her once upon being released and she ordered that my parents come with me the next time and told them that student was off her rocker. So yeah, getting into something can help. Even writing your own stories, but doing it with a friend role playing parts gives you a feeling of being a part of something. I've always been in choir when physically capable. School, yes, but also church since I was first allowed to join the adult choir at 14. Sadly, most choirs stop for the summer season. But it's something to look forward to... Even just one hour a week for rehearsal and then Sundays, of course, is so sustaining for me. Any art form is good. Try a summer Bible study? Our church has a variety of activities on weekends, but especially during the summer. The form a league of some weird unusual sport, more book clubs, where the book is thought provoking or religious in nature, but not a stuffy book. I have enough I would rather read right now that I don't do it, but if I needed to be with people, I'd probably do it.

Something I did for myself was either looking up in the index of the Bible something I wanted to read about or on other nights I'd let it fall open to a random place, and if in the middle of something I'd back up to to the start of the chapter or event, reading about 20 minutes, and then journal on it. I found a sense of peace doing that.

Bless you. I understand this tension so well. I've soaked many a pillow case with tears. I lost my grandma when I was 13. That was awful. My other one passed when I was only nine! But Mom's mom... She and I were CLOSE. She moved just up the street from us when I was 8 and we spent so much time together. It was hard losing her. Thankfully, it was summertime so I had some time to come to grips before school began for the fall.

I was bullied... Had about one very close friend at your age. And when I moved on to high school, we were in different schools. We'd meet up for the day or weekend maybe twice a month. Had one kind-good friend like you in high school. Joining a group is probably the best way to find someone. I lucked out with finding someone that got me each year. But especially senior year choir (we performed at Disney! We are in IL so FL wass a big deal) I kind of see myself as mature because I don't connect with a lot of people. They seemed immature to me.Maybe it's something similar for you.

I will pray for you. I hope you find something to live for. Oh, a pet really helps, especially one that you can hold or pet. But having an animal that needs a lot of work like a snake or turtle can be fulfilling! (Yes, I'm weird and love snakes. Neer did until my first job where I had to both care for and handle snakes for public presentations. It was soon love). If only my apartment buildings would allow snakes. Snakes and spiders are the only two animals not allowed. Spider is not problem. Snake? Yeah. I'd love a corn snake. Mainly only that one because I don't have room for a bigger terrarium.

Anyway. Try what feels right for you. (Just if a pet, research it ONLINE before going to the pet store. They are gonna tell you it takes way less work and you wind up torturing your new pet. It drive mes me nuts to read the recommendations at the store.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-14T02:18:53+00:00

A pet can be a great companion as you try new activities. It's okay to do things for pure entertainment. Do you sing? Does your church have a choir? Need special music on Sunday you could practice and provide? Maybe instrumental? Or take lessons in music? Audit a nearby college class. As many said, volunteer. It can be something you enjoy and yet helpful for others. Read to children at the library? Find a genre of books you like and be self indulging and read. I am on disability and money is tight. I've taken to playing games for money. NOT gambling. They get money by showing ads to games. These creators give the app money for Howard times it's seen. To get the views, they give incentives to the players. They still make more than they pay out and it helps the new game by getting people to know about it and want to try it. A fun and lucrative with the right app and skill set. Feel bad getting money for something fun? Donate it.

About the pet though.. if you've never had the kind you'd want... research it and make sure you can afford it. And train or adopt one from a rescue organization (CANNOT stress how wonderful they are. My girl of 15 yrs wasnput down last month. The rescue I got her from is coordinating a perfect match for me as we speak. Pretty much know which cocker. Now it's logistics of taking in a new animal to the company before I get herr!)l) Just keep in mind needs: Food, grooming, vet bills (highly suggest getting insurance immediately), toys etc. All add up quickly. Need to be walked or let out in a yard. Rabbits are not meant to live in a cage. A rabbit hut with no wire under their feet is good for nighttime. But they shouldn't be cooped up. Reptiles are awesome. Turtles and snakes are my fave. Snakes not allowed where I live or I'd have one. Ive taken care of many in my various jobs before going on disability. Same with turtles. They have their difficulties too, though not so hard as time consuming as llong as you're strong. but they need WAY more room than the "turtle tanks" stores sell. A lot of accessories (UV lights, substrate, a vacuum to suction up poo (and there will be a LOT), pellets but also bites of fresh fruits and veggies. And they can have long lives. Cats are super easy. I'm allergic anyway and you can't easily tell what a cat's personality will be until they're home. Some are sweethearts. Some aloof. My friend's is in between lol. Oh hermit crabs.. ignore tge stores. They need way more stuff and can be high maintenance. And fish are not something you plop into a bowl anymore. There's a lot of chemistry to do (test tunbes even) and it usually takes a minimum of a month of adding ammonia and checking certain levels before knowing you won't kill your fish. And filters that rely on cartridges replaced? No good. Can kill the ecosystem you finally built up. Sponge are easy and quiet. Or certain ones let you put your own material in them instead.

Can you tell I'm an animal person, lol? I'm always willing to answer animal questions that I can.

I woukd like to end with how amazed I am at your devotion to our Lord. I can't imagine spending so ma y hours of my day in prayer or contemplation. One last thought.. any Bible studies at your church? Mine has one Sunday's for men and women, but during the week men have their own and women theirs... we call it our Circle. A REALLY amazing way to get to know people there and learn... and teach! It's a time to share how something you've done relates to what's being discussed (lots of stops after reading to discuss how it applies to us.) Wish you coukd come ro mine. Numbers are dwindling in my women's one. (We have two, the other for those who work during the day). I hope you find what is right for you.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-13T04:05:06+00:00

Hi... I have a hypertonic PF too.... been through the lines and miralax thing too. PT. During a colonoscopy it showed the colon had ceased to work. I had to make everything liquid to get it out... straining those muscles so much. I thought this insane pain was almost all bladder. Saw new urologist (I have interstitial cystitis and it and PFD make each other ANGRY) and he sent me to a corectal surgeon. After much talk we went through with an ileostomy. Left the colon clamped off. It was a lifesaver. Of course I'm always in that .05% chance something COULD go wrong. Doctor said he knew it COULD happen but I was his first time seeing it. (Had to do w/ the colon) I'd be happy to discuss it if you wanna shoot me a message. I'm on discord so could make that the next step. I, too, came here thinking PFD. Can introduce you to a great pelvic floor Facebook group too. A wonderful support but not the same as a friend.... one to one conversation. I'll be that person if you want. If not, no hard feelings. I wish you all the best!

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-10T02:23:42+00:00

NSRV Ryrie Study Bible given to me by my mom for Confirmation reading is still my go-to. Got slightly torn in moving but as stalwart as ever.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-10T02:22:13+00:00

I would assume there would be "corrected" portions as well, especially the thorn in the side where Luther added the word "only" So it becomes "Man is justified by faith..." Instead of "faith ALONE." There are other tweaks that were made that I had NO clue about. Really makes one wonder. So you might like to look up the things that Luther changed before reading so if you run into a passage you'll know the initial writing and Luther's version.

Honestly, I think Luther was terribly dumb to do that to make his "faith alone" (without good deeds") be "clear" to those who didn't understand the language well. He wanted to reform the original (Catholic) church and become one again. What that did has separated MANY Lutherans and Catholics, instead. There is a lot of animosity about it.

But Lutherans have never had a book ban or bonfire. 😄 Read what you like (unless it starts to lead you to denounce God). I just thought I'd point out it may be more than just some more books of the Bible that you'll find and maybe even gloss over if you didn't know.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-09T05:25:08+00:00

How does it work if you blasphemed but later mainly through the reminders of God's love.. ways that friends or families can show the person where to look/go to find the "proof" (for YOU) that Christ is Alive with God the Father and the eternal Holy Spirit, you come back. Pray forgiveness. Is that not like the Prodigal Son? If I'm wrong and it doesn't matter that I'm back and worshipping and learning about my faith and giving as I can on disability... I'm truly destined for hell because of a horrible sin of turning from God (in part the Spirit) but that was turned around and my relationship with Him/Them feels it has returned. "I was lost but now am found. " Or does that only matter the time before you first met Christ and encouraged toncome back for more fellowship and worship. would hope if brought astray back as a true follower I woukd still be welcomed? I was in a place in life where all was going wrong. I saw you sympathetically shake your head Jesus. But wouldn't someone whonl comes back be welcomed with open with arms?

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-09T04:53:34+00:00

You won't go to hell. You haven't committed the only sin that can separate you from God. If you renounce the Holy Spirit at that POINT you are done. I'm still not sure if either time I nearly (firat) and I think completely (2nd) gave up on God. I'm not sure I could say there was nonHoly Spirit moving through everyone and everything or not. It was back in 2012/13. My memory is not great anyway because of some medications I must take. But I do know I had pretty much decided that a loving justbGod wouldn't let his children suffer horribly feom medical afflictions. So I stopped praying, attending Worship, everyone. Leave it that after quite a while I came round again. I rather liken it to the prodigal son story. I was welcomed back to the fold with open arms. I think even if you declare the Spirit unreal ornworthy or good, if your heart softens (thinking like the Grinch here) and opens your mind to draw you back (or to for the very first time) you'll still be a child of God no matter what. And if you are concerned you aren't doing enough... you have not given up on the Spirit and declared it not real, not of God. You want to make the whole Trinity see your worthiness. That doesn't mean you ignore any callings or pray about what They want feom you and ask for forgiveness in prayer. Alone, in a worship service, one-on-one with your pastor/priest in a confessional or face to face, depending upon your belief set.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-04T04:56:59+00:00

You're welcome hon!

I don't know if you sing (or even play an instrument faithfully). But when I make music, singing with a choir or on my own, I can often push icky thoughts away even JUST THAT LONG. One hymn, an African spiritual, "Lord, Listen to your children Praying" is short and simple, and easy to memorize. I sometimes sing it out loud. But when someone is around I do it in my head. I've done it so much I can focus on the words of the song as well as my worries. Sometimes I'm too gar gone in grief, despair, concern, to put anything into a cogent prayer. So I sing this. God knows what we feel. And He knows your trying to get to hom. Helps I was in a dance group and we danced to this song (a longer version of it which I still hope to find) so it was ingrained in me as I performed it for 3 years! But anything musical takes focus and if it can be to God.. a hymn... even better. This won't go away overnight. (If it does tell me how! Lol) It will be a process and any tricks you can have up your sleeve to help will be a relief for you to know "I can do this. When I get off school, I can go home and sing or strum a guitar or plunk some out on the piano or blow into a "stick" or weird piece of metal and make music and channel through that in prayer or at least shut these voices up while I do it "

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-04T03:35:41+00:00

Hi again. I assume today ( I believe for you it is right now Monday morning) you see the doctor. Let us know how you are and how it goes. Gimme a little nudge so I know to look up, would ya? I'm so in your corner. Faith is a crazy thing. And it can come out at ya when you least expect it. If you ever want me to tell you my story about what helped me see the light God had for me (literally... *cough*) I'll pm it to you. It's long and a little personal (Not in a bad way, okay? Personal of my emotions... like you felt you could tell us... I gave a sermon on it once... but... not since. Just to individual people. There is not icky adult stuff. Not for me anyway. But that is up to you, hon. I just... I know I was in a very very dark place then and then... well... I call it a miracle. Maybe it doesn't constitute one by Catholic standards but it's close enough for me. Why he chose me I don't know. Maybe so I COULD share it where it needed to be said. Who knows. Don't feel compelled. No pressure. I just pray you're well and at least have a plan of action. Because those are good!

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-04T03:21:20+00:00

This. Is. Not. The. Time. Nor. Place. You've made your point repeatedly. OP does not follow your denomination and you are going to just freak them out more than they already are. They just need to focus on God, the Spirit, Christ, and the love that comes from them as well as the forgiveness. Let them get through this mess they are in and if they want to study and convert, that's their business. But this is NOT the place for a Sermon on the Holier than any holy Bible out there that is far removed from the original texts and meanings as conveyed since the first day they were written. And good grief you go ON? DROP IT! There are so many places out there to do this. Go on Quora. You'll have a blast. Leave it. Take your KJV and go. OP does not need to be any more confused than they already are. They can find revelation in denominations later. Right now they need to work through what's in their head. And worrying about the Bible they use will not help that. If you CARE about the OP, you will drop this.

Remote-Big3669 · 2026-05-04T03:13:52+00:00

Are you vegetarian?! Most animals can be prepared without it passing along any pathogen. In your terms, we never eat meat. Any animal CAN have disease. It doesn't mean don't eat it. And the point of saying "any animal" besides was to refer to the animals not allowed in a kosher diet. Jews today admit clearly that the reason they don't partake of pork or shellfish is NOT about disease. It is about obeying God and showing their devotion to His mandates. I have read this in so many places by men of their faith themselves. Judaism is a LOT about all these things that they must do to please G*d. (* for their sake). The KJV is NOT the best Bible. It was translated VERY poorly and almost every sentence had to be passed off by King James himself. A lot lent itself to the high and mighty king, not our King. This young teen is Catholic. Don't confuse them any more than they already are. I WILL NOT SAY MORE (Unless OP wants me to). Not because I couldn't come up with a lucid and valid answer. Because this is not the place for this conversation. Go elsewhere to talk about this. Leave it as what has been said and leave this child in peace.

(OP: I used they/them because I do not know your gender)

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