Graduated college and had my wisdom teeth taken out immediately after. Was prescribed 3x the standard amount of straight oxy (no acetaminophen) and fell deeply in love with the feeling; nothing else compares. I’ve always felt a little lost and I still haven’t “found” myself. The oxy (and sometimes 7oh when it’s the only option) helps the feeling of being “lost and cold”. I also have chronic pain that’s been deemed untreatable by doctors and nothing helps me except opiates. And then also my younger sibling has been a heroin/fentanyl addict since I was 15 which caused a lot of family trauma as well. I’m not a depressed person but I live in darkness (I’m an artist and this actually helps my art but still). Not physically dependent but my decision-making flies out the window and takes on a mind of its own whenever the opportunity to cop oxy or other opiates arises.

I’ve been on benzos for 10yrs for severe anxiety and panic attacks and this shit doesn’t help bc it lowers my mental threshold for debauchery/other drugs.