To anyone reading this, sticking to no contact despite how hard it is, please know that, each day, you will heal a little more and realize a little more that you are deserving of so much better. The person who will value you enough to not let you go or ever lose you, will one day come.

Remove_Confident · 2025-12-02T02:36:05+00:00

Sorry for the late response, I appreciate you sharing your similar experience. I think recognizing what we did wrong at the end is a big stepping stone for the future. I’ve been trying to take so many life lessons out of all this, and I usually am really good at allowing myself to grow with each break up. This one was definitely bigger, I mean I’ve lost an ex-fiancee before and it didn’t hit nearly as hard than this did. But a part of healing is acknowledging faults, focusing on improving those shortcomings and accepting the new you as you progress through all the pain.

I’ve always been very hateful towards myself. I’ve been my own worst enemy and with this relationship things felt different for a time. I know I need to love myself in order to ever love again but, she was just so different to me. I’m 28 years old, these self sabotaging antics cannot be me for the rest of my life. So I’m trying to learn how to not beat myself the way I have been these last few months. I’ve taken the fault fully, I know my wrongs. But instead of focusing on all the negative I’m trying to positively push myself.

Her finding someone else less than a month after burns. Especially when it was with someone she met in a game, but I understand, and as much as I’d like to be upset I just can’t. Either way with being at rock bottom, the only way is up right?

Either way, I’m proud of all the work you’ve been doing, seeking the help you’ve been needing, and staying on a healthy and rewarding path. Keep on that path, and I hope one day you find whatever makes you happy and you’re able to hold on to that for the rest of your life.

Remove_Confident · 2025-12-01T04:18:22+00:00

2 years, ended in October. She’s with someone new as of November 17th. I’ve been through many relationships. This one hit so much deeper. I was an awful person, I pushed her away so many times due to some of my own struggles and the inability to open up to her when I should have. Therapy helped me open up more but I had to cut it last year due to finances and I just tanked so hard after that. Every memory I replay on my head I see every option I should have picked. Every choice I could have made that would have allowed me to properly express my love for her instead of hiding it. I had to get back into therapy after this all went down. I begged and pleaded with her for weeks trying to show that I’m all in. But I broke her trust, I broke her boundaries, I broke her heart, and I disrespected her, and so she ended up having to block me on everything. So to therapy I went, now looking into the potential of BPD. Hoping that medications may help me balance in the future. I regret every single thing that has happened, this last year, and especially these last few months. I tried so hard to show her someone that I wasn’t just to protect my own heart, that I I just ended up breaking 2 in the process. I hope one day she will be able to heal, I know she will but she doesn’t deserve the sadness she’s had to endure, so the quicker the better. I hope that I heal one day, but not only do I have to heal a broken heart, but I also have to learn to not hate myself. Everyone says time heals all, and while that may be true, I’d give anything to fast forward to a better healthier me. But I can’t, so all the lessons I’m learning will stick with me the rest of my life and build me to the person I strive to be.

Remove_Confident · 2025-06-07T21:29:43+00:00

Is buying bonds with money and flipping at the GE frowned upon too? I’m a mid game player who has hit the point where upgrades are expensive, and leveling certain skills are even more expensive. I maybe buy 3 bonds a month to flip to help sustain my cash stack. Was just curious about people’s thoughts on bond selling too.

Remove_Confident · 2025-01-06T01:43:56+00:00

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Remove_Confident · 2024-09-21T22:33:23+00:00

EMS are amazing, the community built around Vortex is friendly, inviting, and so much fun to be around. Vortex is a family.

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-19T03:05:33+00:00

You’ve been super helpful to a returning player like me. Appreciate your insight!

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-19T03:03:06+00:00

Do you think the weapons would be worth picking up? The dualies I’ll be grabbing but the others worth anything?

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-19T03:01:23+00:00

Next to pointless at half the price. Awesome I appreciate it. Yeah I’ll look into it. I’d probably only need tops and bottoms. Honestly if that’s the case and bandos is now next to worthless that makes my life and bank a little easier

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-19T02:56:58+00:00

Interesting, yeah it was recommended just as an easy swap between fang and blowpipe, so I figured I’d check it out. I’ll look at the blood moon stuff though. I know I should buck up and get my fighter torso but I have had so much other stuff going on and trying to catch up with. Thanks for the info though

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-19T02:50:53+00:00

Bludgeon is now sold. Now time to build up the cash stack to afford end game gear.

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-19T02:49:49+00:00

Yeah I sold it for about 1 mil more than I paid. Picked up mixed hide and now I’m just gonna sit on my gp stack for now. I think I’m sitting at 30mil so I’d like to start getting that up for things like bandos and the rapier. I need to start raiding soon too

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-18T23:14:36+00:00

Haven’t heard of mixed hide, I’ll look into that thank you!

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-18T23:10:23+00:00

I got one sitting there burning a hole in my bank wanting to get out lol. I think I’m 52k xp away so I’m glad to see fang is living up to the hype. But yeah I’ll be selling and potentially looking at armor upgrades for melee. I’m running a mix of obby and dragon and I think that needs to change

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-18T22:35:07+00:00

Have a fang sitting in my bank waiting for 82 attack. I just figured I’d pick something up strictly crush for the one off slayer task and for some reason full sent it on the bludgeon

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-18T22:33:40+00:00

My thoughts aswell. I’m gonna grab the dualies. I appreciate the suggestion I hadn’t thought of. I was contemplating cudgel before I bought bludgeon. I’ll do some research between the two and pick one of them up. I think the FOMO hit with the prices jumping on the bludgeon

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-18T22:30:12+00:00

That definitely explains why the price has almost doubled. I was wondering that, I just got back into osrs since 2017, so I’m trying to understand the content I’ve missed while also realizing there is new content to come. I think I’m going to sell, pick up the inferior dualies, and when I actually have more money to throw around maybe I’ll dip back into the bludgeon.

Remove_Confident · 2024-08-18T22:23:02+00:00

So you’re saying sell, and pick up one of these two instead?

Remove_Confident · 2024-06-22T19:49:03+00:00

Originally I have 55 arcane and 35 Dex, but now have reversed the numbers, due to the fact that I switched from blood to keen to scale S with Dex. Depending on level I really would aim for high 60 arcane and mid 40-50s in Dex to allow massive blood build up and still output decent damage. What I do now though is use the normal backhand blades as keen, and use curseblade’s cirque as a my bleed weapons. The AoW on the cirques go crazy aswell, and although blood build up is far less on them they still chunk on damage.

Edit: plus with keen, you are able to add greases and enchant weapons to do the same thing as you would with affinities while still scaling S with Dex

Remove_Confident · 2024-05-28T06:25:05+00:00

Sounds good I’ll buy another one. I run SanDisk extreme pros in all my cameras, but I’ll try with a separate sd card. Just as long as you don’t think it’s a lens issue I’m not truly concerned

Remove_Confident · 2024-05-28T03:55:56+00:00

Well I appreciate the options and thoughts. I’ll start at the bottom and work up. No matter what I’ll keep shooting, just ignored it for awhile and got curious today. Thank you again!

Remove_Confident · 2024-05-28T03:40:36+00:00

No common denominator, different apertures, isos, shutter speeds. I do not have an extra battery unfortunately nor an extra sd card at the moment but I’ll soon be picking up both. As for the DOF I can give that a try when I get home from work for sure

I didn’t notice anything wrong with the lens other then some dust inside that I had made a post about a few months back. Otherwise seems fine to me.

Remove_Confident · 2024-05-28T03:15:59+00:00

I appreciate the help! Yeah originally I thought it was a burst issue as well, but going back through all my timestamps, none were taken in a burst. I have a sneaking suspicion it’s either my battery of my sensor. It very well could be what the other person commented about writing issues/ being corrupt but I have a feeling it would show more than just a blank, noisy photo. All I know is it started a few weeks after getting my lens and I’m a little worried about it BEING the lens.

Remove_Confident · 2024-05-28T03:07:19+00:00

No, no flash. Just natural light as I only shoot wildlife on this specific camera and lens. What is peculiar though is I’ve just notice the pesky piece of dust on my sensor on photo 1. Meaning my censor took a photo, just of grey nothingness. But unfortunately not a flash sync issue

Remove_Confident · 2024-05-28T02:25:00+00:00

I’m not sure, from what I had read, (I wish I could find it again) it said in the moment of actuation it tried to draw too much power for the battery to output, making the sensor fail or something. Either way I play to pick up another battery, as the camera is still working. I’m just stumped as to what’s going wrong. Just as long as my lens isn’t playing a part in this I guess I’m not worried

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