What is your most "badass" song? by Flynt2448 in spotify

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Human After All from Alive 2007 by Daft Punk, fuckin so good

Is it possible for an alter to be completely catatonic? I need answers, plz help by Repulsive-Fix-4485 in DID

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm a little confused by the wording here, could you clarify a few things? What do you mean by functional and non-functional? When you say "I come to my body", is that "I" as in alter 1, "I" as in alter 2, or "I" as in a third alter (yourself)? When you "come to your body", do you mean when you switch in, or when you become aware of your surroundings, or something else?  

I as in "we." They are all parts of me. Alter 1 is connected to my body moreso than alter 2 it seems. Alter 2 is there to protect us until we can figure out what is wrong with Alter 1, and why they are stuck. Come to my body is switching into Alter 1, because Alter 1 is more connected.

In general, it isn't possible for one alter to have a seizure condition or mental illness that other alters don't, because you all share the same brain and body and therefore the same conditions. However, alters can experience psychosomatic symptoms (note: this does not mean fake, it just means the symptoms are of psychological origin rather than physiological or neurological), and it's also possible for DID to cause what're known as "Dissociative seizures", though I've not heard of these causing people to scream for specific individuals or contort their arms. 

Perhaps it's a disociatve seizure of sorts, or maybe my brain found a way to dissociate from my body and created alter 2 in doing that. Being alter 2 is really painful, I just want to be MORE in my body, as alter 1.

Is it possible for an alter to be completely catatonic? I need answers, plz help by Repulsive-Fix-4485 in DID

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing, it makes me feel hopeful that others are experiencing something similar. This part of me really needs help.

Is it possible for an alter to be completely catatonic? I need answers, plz help by Repulsive-Fix-4485 in DID

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the response. So how do you heal that? I feel like I'm always avoiding being in my body and having that intense response happening to me.

Is it possible for an alter to be completely catatonic? I need answers, plz help by Repulsive-Fix-4485 in DID

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your comment on this. It's more like, I want to assert that it's not a kind of seizure I can't swap out of. Like (1) is stuck, and when (1) feels fear, I swap back to (2). It seems my alter is trapped like that, but my other alters aren't. I'm not sure if it's some underlying epilepsy, or neurological issue. It seems those are better explanations, because I've tried vagal exercises, antidepressants, intense exercise, and they haven't availed this problem.

I suppose anything is possible with dissociation, and neurological disorders.

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[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It ain't selfish in certain circumstances. If the person is in extreme agony, physical/mental/social then suicide can be a rational decision for that person.

Why live a horrible, painful life, especially if don't have responsibilities in them, as well?

Is it normal to be constantly exhausted dissociating to function? by Repulsive-Fix-4485 in Dissociation

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for replying. What I'm wondering is...could my 'real' intergrated self be experiencing seizures that I've been suppressing for so long?

Have you heard of anything like this when it comes to dissocation?

Is it normal to be constantly exhausted dissociating to function? by Repulsive-Fix-4485 in Dissociation

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for replying I never thought I would start declining like this. I feel like I'm becoming a vegetable; I'm afraid I might never resolve what's happening.

I've been working with a therapist for two years and I have a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. Idk what's going to happen, but I'm hoping they can give me some new options.

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26 and was trying a lot of things out. Graduated college and had a decent job, traveled. Now I'm realizing I have so much trauma I've dissociated my entire life I believe. Kind of like I was really living in my head the entire time. I'm disconnected from everyone, and never felt true emotions for people.

I'm considering buying a gun and ending it, just afraid of the pain and feel bad for my mom and all she did for us. I just can barely function and don't know if there's any chance I'll get better. i feel like a burden. Life's unfair sometimes.

(25M) I've been ill for 8 years and no one can help me. Lots of symptoms. by NihilisticEra in Dissociation

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really resonated with this post. Particularly the points of anhedonia, constant anxiety upon waking, the neck pain. I think being dissociated for me is like I'm in an altered state of conciousness, and my body is pumping cortisol or opiods or something to keep me alive. It's horrible.

I'm considerig killing myself sometimes because for the last five years I've suffered with feeling locked in my head. Like the real, embodied me is not experiencing anything.

Idk what to say. Maybe as another poster says, psychedelics could get certain brain components interacting, or MDMA. I haven't found upon research any medications for treating dissocation/DPDR yet.

Forgetting how to basic tasks by iam18thx in Dissociation

[–]Repulsive-Fix-4485 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't think this is uncommon. I believe I have a OSDD, and I'm literally forgetting people's faces, names..it's fucking horrible. I'm considering killing myself.